Things are rough in the future

I am going to play without rope this weekend. It will be only the second time I’ve done that. The first time was two years ago with a woman who usually bottomed to men who played hard. It was in an ugly, grey-painted local dungeon. I was dressed in black lingerie and thigh-highs. I was treated to a matching collar and cuffs, told to get on my hands and knees and then made to walk in too-high heels with a Judith Butler book balanced on my head. I was slapped a dozen times on my right cheek. The top said she’d do it over and over until I managed to keep my eyes open. This inevitably turned into over and over until I yellowed. Eventually, I was cuffed to a St. Andrews cross where my tormentor persistently whacked the outsides of both my thighs with a cane. It was unbearable and once again I yellowed. This weekend I will play in the nicer dungeon, which has velvet curtains and oriental rugs. I will wear a sweet-looking pink diaphanous hippie dress. The top will tie my wrists in a comfy way (!), have me kneel, expose and maul my breasts, and then push me down so that he can cane my ass.
I have never been an impact person, and the last caning I received REALLY HURT FAR TOO HURTILY. But thanks to a new crush on a rope top, I have been fantasizing more about physical masochism (rather than the usual emotional masochism like exposure shame). The thought “I want you to hurt me” comes from my gut when I think about negotiating with this rigger. I imagine it’s the only thing I’d need to say. I would say it, would ask to be tied in order to be beaten by him, if he didn’t live thousands of miles away. I found myself pretending that this rigger was tying me when a friend and I were lab tying last weekend. I think it’s good there won’t be rope this weekend because I’d much rather be present with the person who’s topping me. If I can stand it!

Credits

NB: the r2 A/D/E ensemble comes in three pieces and I’ve simplified the names to make this more clear. It’s available in the mainstore.
r2 A/D/E seiga boots[pink]Maitreya
r2 A/D/E seiga bottom[pink]Maitreya
r2 A/D/E seiga[pink]Maitreya

Jewels
[Since 1975] – Treear Accessories (Gold) (subo gift)
-SU!- Nose Piercing Set (Click To Resize) (VIP group gift)

Body
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
This is Wrong, Musicorama tattoo [Lucky Letter (one board for female and one for male)]
alme. Summer Glam – Black nails

Makeup
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 3.0
CURELESS[+] Noel Set / Holiday Hunt Prize (now a group gift)
La Malvada Mujer – Dream Powder
#adored – spellbound brows – molten metal edition {omega}

Pose
Ama & Nais – Cuffed Standing – 06 {Unscripted} I used the cuffs not the pose

Location pic 2: Insilico sick bay

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