Making a scene

plotting It’s only just recently that I’ve realized that I can get to know people first, perhaps over a period of many months, before playing with them. And that the people I have known for a while might be good play partners. It’s tough, nevertheless, to see a friend who started in the scene a few months after I did (in August 2014) already have a dom with whom she plays regularly and with abandon. The only taste of submission I’ve had came just last week with a man I’ve been gladdened and maddened by for six months. Before it happened, we had another one of our tussles over intimacy (in which I cry and soak his shirt because getting angry is too risky, and he holds me and broods until he admits to some kind of performance anxiety.) I was close to angry this time, close enough to change out of my sexy outfit, which I’d had on for a matter of minutes, don my street clothes and flats, pack my bag and put on my coat. (I’d waited so long to wear my black suede Mary Janes with their 4.5 inch heel. I was crushed.) We both sat in our coats in an empty playroom while we stewed in our own juices. Once we were cooked through, we moved to a room where people were scening. That was too much for frustrated me to ignore, so finally I said “I want to sit at your feet and put my head in your lap,” and he assented. As he stroked my hair I turned into a pussycat enjoying a nice spot of sun after a thorough grooming and a good meal.
mistress commands Later, when I was back to my usual self, he described the submissive me as demure, and I wanted to argue about his adjective. But then he said he felt intense affection for me while he was stroking my hair, and I decided that I’d give him a pass…this time. In the hope, of course, that there will be a next and I will get to wear a collar and leash while I sit between his legs. There’s nothing too demanding in this scenario for either of us, which is probably the best way to play it right now. I cannot afford to sit and wait for the arrival of the lightning-bolt dom who will make me his slave. Meanwhile, I have time enough to wait for my relationship with my friend to grow into something more intense.

Credits
h.m.a.e.m. – The small faces necklace – two (NEW; comes in five variations on the faces; ty Riri! glad to have you back!)
Dead Dollz, Malice Poudre (only the blouse): on sale prior to retirement, comes with a black pencil skirt
Zaara, Trishna Leggings (these are old but wonderfully spring-like)
MONS / MESH – Septum Ring (style22) bronze (at TDRF)
MONS / MESH – Septum Ring (style23) [L and R nostrils] – bronze (at TDRF)
REIGN.- POINTED TOE BOOTS-(SLINK) BLACK
Essences [Storm TDRFusion03] pale02 *brunette* (at TDRF)
[KOOQLA] Nico – beauty marks tattoo
MIA14 … BEAUTY MARKS 1 Face Only
-Glam Affair – Gloss 04
.Birdy. Simple eyeliner
[monso] My Hair – Yong/ Black Brown
Clemmm, Damaged Hands *Bruises and grit* 1
Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual – Small
pose one: flowey (with a prop whip from Zibska’s Cynthia dress)
pose two: Ma Vie, Mistress
location: Hollowtree

Bad scene

strungouting I found someone to scene with (as the kinky say), and it went wrong, albeit not horribly or irreparably. You will find my story under the cut. If you don’t click onward, do take a moment to note that the Femdom V hunt is running a little while longer. I am still ambivalent about SLatex, but I was pleased to see how cute infernal Anorak looks in this coral-red number from Say Nothing. Continue reading

Bruiser

STANCESJESSCA I just bought my first corset (see pic on Flickr). It’s an underbust, mostly black with decorative laces on the sides and stainless steel closures in the front. I tried a long-line overbust corset that didn’t fit my short-waisted bod. It appealed to me because of the fabric: a somewhat old-fashioned floral pattern, chysanthemums I think, in pale pink, red and white. The vendor told me this one is rarely bought. I was drawn to it because when I think about a kink wardrobe I imagine myself in loose flowing dresses in lace (think Free People) or tap pants and a teddy in pretty fabrics rather than tougher looks in tight leather or latex. Something about my submissive side puts me in touch with the soft, subtle part of me. That part of me was not, however, controlling today’s purse strings. I am pleased to reassure all my readers that the corset I bought better reflects my true self. It’s a little evil. [Update: waking up to spy one’s new corset lying on the floor is disturbing. It looks like alien tech and it weighs far more than an hourglass.]
CORSETTKEVIN On her pudendum Portia is wearing Cyril, new from Sian Pearl for Chariot. It’s a lovely swan-shaped metal codpiece [with matching crown, sold separately] in soft silver, bronze and blue tones. It’s very resizable so SLadies like Portia can pretend it’s a merkin. I have to confess that I have long wanted to buy Portia a pair of well-stuffed men’s briefs. I think Cyril may have led me to the slope all slippery with swan shit.

Credits (My internet access is limited. You will find URLs at Seraphim.)
-Pixicat- Vintage.Corset – Allure (xs) (at Collabor88)
[Chariot] Cyril – Gentleman’s Accoutrement (NEW; at Mystic Realms fair; ty Sian!)
Barely Legal – Endeavor Cylinder Boots S (Polka Minnie)
[LeLutka]-ALEXAND hair – BlondeFun (NEWish)
No. 07, Geometry Eyelashes (NEW at L’Accessoires; ty Sugarplum)
-Glam Affair – Sia – Pearl – Dead Doll (group gift)
Hela – Pearl Eyebrows (gacha)
Hela – White Ruff (gacha)
pose: Ma Vie, Revealed pack
location: Tierra de Fuego

Sounds in the night

shadowed2 Portia is wearing the sexy lace leggings from Cameron Vasiliov’s latest offering from B.D.R. The Hunting Souls outfit will set you up for Hallowe’en. It includes a bandeau top, wings, horns and plain and gruesome versions of a neck corset. There are also more appliers than this blogger can explain. Check out the vendor for deets. And don’t venture under the cut if you are kink-averse.
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Dual Dido

lounging Jewelry Fair, which opens on September 13, is the place to go if you find yourself lusting for Zib Scaggs’ latest big bad Zibska baubles. Today I decided to break the new Dido set of hat and collar to create two looks. One for haute couture, seen here. One for humiliation, located under the cut. All of Ms. Scaggs’ pieces are colour change, but I gravitate to her charcoal-black because it’s dramatic and I’m moody. I am also a fan of Marni, The Skinnery’s Arcade gacha item, which I’ve seasoned with a generous sprinkling of hot freckles from Milk. If you don’t like your virtual life spicy, don’t venture under the cut. Continue reading

Lunge or languish

lunging
I’ve been shooting and not showing. Partly because, with the exception of the owl tattoo, nothing here is brand new. I do recommend that you join the Kooqla group and snap up the many gifts still available. The makeup you see here comes in a pack with a white variation. Both are beautiful in-world.  Continue reading

A little racy

ponyplay When I think of pony play I feel exhausted. I find neither training nor sustained physical exertion erotic. It is the case that I can appreciate the aesthetics of the transformed body—at least as described by Molly Weatherfield in Safe Word—but I can’t imagine ever having that kind of body or eating the apples that go with it. That said, Cameron Vasiliov’s Dark Horse jumpsuit for B.D.R. inspired me to take a run at a pony-girl costume. Each of the colours available for sale comes with a HUD allowing you to combine the colour in eight different ways with black. The outfit allows for Lolas but Hedda left her hers at the barn for the milking machines to play with. All the pony gear is free on Marketplace, as detailed below. Continue reading

Girl meets mask

shamed
It turns out that I am afraid of masks. As much as I struggle to scrounge up a new skin for every post, I am loath to cover Portia’s face. It feels profoundly dehumanizing. Since I’m still on my D/S tear, however, I figured I could try working MetaTheodora’s Foundling mask into a humiliation scenario. What would it be like to wake up alone in a damp, cavernous space, locked into a heavy mask? Trying at some moments to make out the words on the mask, fingers tracing the lines. Trying at others to find a door without being hobbled by your heels, without tripping over trash or tumbling into boxes. Thinking the text must be in code and then realizing it’s Latin. Something you forgot about after highschool. The mask, which bears a line from a poem by Lucretius, is available now at the Fantasy Gacha Carnival. Oddly, although I found a translation of the line the other day on a handy website, I cannot find one now. No res is being revealed in this post.
puppeted
Portia’s Loordes of London corset and leg tattoo are prizes in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2. The divine puppeteer tat inspired me to visit Dr. Kit’s Bondage Puppet Theater, where Portia may still be in a box when I’m not looking.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, Foundling Mask – LUCRETIUS (Common) (at Fantasy Gacha Carnival; ty Sian!)
Loordes of London-Moulin Rouge Corset-#5-M and undies (1L or 5L? in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2)
Love Zombie – Marionette Tattoo (1L or 5L? in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2)
Essences – Luaflor *lait* blonde (old TDRF skin I think)
BowChicka – Purismo 2 – *B* – Brushed Gold for Slink High Feet (same pack has medium feet version; these are colour change)
*{Junbug}* Freyja’s Collar – Night -(not too old gacha)
Pure Poison – Locked Hand Cuff (VIP group gift; fee to join)
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XS – High

Take this longing

patience It’s that end-of-the-month moment when everything’s been blogged but one still has the itch. It’s time to love the lull, to sit very very still before the next round of events begins. Knowing there will be a new flood come May 1st does nothing to relax me today. Indeed, the chaos of too many choices could sink me. I must take pictures now, while the fish and I can keep our heads above water.
hooked Hedda’s skin is Pandorah by Aikea Rieko of The Plastik. It is just one of the 100 skin tones in her Astrali line. The colour changes with the Windlight. It’s so fascinating to see it shift from grape to lavender, grey and blue.
toes I once saw a bondage film in which a woman was secured only by her big toes. She was unable to move from atop the table where she stood but only a piece of ordinary string was holding her there. Bondage as simple and light as that is almost symbolic. It plays up the desire to give over control rather than the one to be prevented from acting.

Take This Longing

Credits to creators
Zibska, Daphnis (NEW. The hooks and fishes can be worn separately. This is a VIP group gift. There’s a 200L fee to join but many previous gifts are still available. Ty Zib!)
The Plastik– Astrali Skin[Basic]:// Pandorah (ty Aikea!)
Mad’, Scale Pasties (NEW)
Nox. Beauty Marks [Four]
[LeLutka]-SEIKO hair – BlueNightFade
Clemmm – ReSnick eyes .black sclera.Rack
.ARISE. Ankle Cuff / Black (left ankle only in pack; colour change)
Slink, Mesh Feet (Av Enhance) Medium XXS
:[Plastik]:- Clara Shrug [M]:// Faust (came with a whole outfit called Faust)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts (spine)
A:S:S, Art Deco Nails for Slink feet and hands
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual – Small
Rack Poses, Tied for you chair 3 (gacha)