Portrait of a glam opium eater

I’m perimenopausal. (Hmm. As openings go, that one might be less than compelling, unless you’ve never heard the word perimenopausal, which I hadn’t until a friend used it a few years ago. Technically, one is periM until menopause, which is not a phase but the moment at which one has not had a period for 12 months. It takes a long time to say periM, so I just say I’m going through “the change.”) One apparent perk of “the change” arrived two years ago: I stopped craving cola, which I’d drunk in excess since I was 20, my skin cleared up after 35+ years of spots, and PMS disappeared. Gee, I thought, free at frickin’ last. Who knew what joys would come when my body started giving up on me as a sexual being? And how ironic that it started when I decided to be a sexual being again (in the rope realm). The acne, the PMS and a teensy bit of the cola craving are back. I spent the last six weeks poking at zits again. And I am now so depressed that I spent the last two days lying on the couch doing nothing except taking pics in SL. So here you go, this is how I’ve been keeping myself occupied while I wait for a period that’s late for no sexual reason.
Apparently all the hair in the [e] store is going to be retired soon, so go now. And yeah, I know this outfit is combining Chinese and Japanese elements. Throw an abacus at me.

Credits
[CX] Fengyue – Red//Type.2 ( Maitreya ) (@ Uber, I think) NEW
*:..Silvery K..:*Japanese pipe(Lotus Gold)C be careful when you buy: two of the four pipes on display are transfer only! (@ We <3 role play) NEW
*{( konpeitou )}* sweetie – 7 – clogs (@ Lootbox gacha, bought on Marketplace) NEW
[e] Betty (Essentials pack)
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 2.7
Glam Affair, Kinga applier
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
alme Modern gift pink manicure (Tres Chic birthday gift)
[Glitzz] Zania Earring (Tres Chic birthday gift)
[CX] Pierced Septum (Gold) (idk where this came from, an old gift, maybe SLB13)
MiWardrobe, Japanese coin – bracelet (OMG, so old! I loved MiWardrobe)
idk where I got the tat
Xplicit, Pet’s Cage
location: Opium Den (adult)

Don’t wanna be a cowboy

donwannabeacowboySometimes I like to challenge myself, and the powers that be, by dressing my av in brown and giving her ponygirl dreams.

Credits
*PROMAGIC* Yodha – Bra – Brown (gacha at Kinky Monthly)
*PROMAGIC* Yodha – Panties – Brown (gacha at Kinky Monthly)
Kibitz – Dali’s leather torso straps [XS] brown – RARE (past gacha)
#EMPIRE – Ipomoea – Maitreya (fatpack only)
[e] Kabrina hair
Messiah : Qavah / Unisex / DBrown mask
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
INYB, Lexi project tattoo (not available)
*Bolson / Face Tattoo – Fang (Fresh) (C) (no idea where this came from)
#adored – kit lashes
{S0NG} :: Cupid~ Dark Green Eye
-Glam Affair – Sia India – 04 C
poses: Ama & Nais – Cuffed pack (past Romp)
shot at: PFS Stables & Nico’s Haunted Dungeon

BDSM isn’t sex, but it is

thisistheendTwo posts ago I wrote about being dumped by my top. I said I would try to write about the problem of sexual reciprocity. Follow me under the cut.  Continue reading

Sea Hole in my heart

newhole On May 31st, Drinkinstein Sorbet, one of my most most most favourite creators, will be closing her shop The Sea Hole. Until then, everything is 50l. You know Ms. Sorbet’s work from Collabor88, which she founded. Her touchable fabrics, sophisticated colours and signature sea-themed embroideries will be missed. (Or they will stay on Marketplace?!) Several bloggers have said goodbye with a pic of the Valley Dress, so I am following suit. If you don’t have time to scour the racks of The Sea Hole before it closes, make a shopping list from the Marketplace shop, or take my advice and search out the Nicosia Sun Suit, which is perfect for summer. If you have a sense of humour, check out the Octo Dress.

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I’ve blogged The Sea Hole’s wonderful creations many times, but I chose to rerun only this pic because, unlike many of my older, pre-GIMP photos, this one could be improved. Plus, mermaid on yer back. Credits.

Credits for pic one
The Sea Hole – VAlley Dress (MESH) Custard
[ glow ] studio – Wild Shoulder Drape (brown fawn/gold)) (at TDRF)
(Yummy) Sofia Pearls (4 Strands) and earrings and bracelets (former Collabor88 set)
h.m.a.e.m. *midnight princess* clutch – ice
[e] Move Pumps – Java
Faenzo – UFFIE Hair // NTRL Platinum (dollarbie fatpack on Marketplace)
^^Swallow^^ Group Gift- Happy Halloween (old gg)
Cheap Makeup- Eye Gloss [TINTABLE]
:::Sn@tch, Nail Candy (Gold):::
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
pose by xbordeaux (not available as far as I know)
prop: flowey. classic cigarette (wear me!) (came with Bad Habit poses)

(Under)statement

kyoot2 It’s sad to see Kyoot go. Saeya Nanda participated in Fifty Linden Friday and in Collabor88, so I have been able to collect quite a few of her pieces. When I think of Kyoot, I think of cleavage. I’m not kidding. Ms. Nanda shows off an av’s assets in a way that is softly sexy rather than flashy. For today’s post, I accessorized one of Kyoot’s understated Whitehaven dress with a new statement necklace from Zibska. It’s an array of slim bamboo branches, appearing substantial from afar and delicate up close. The different textures combine closely related colours: if you blow up this pic you will see that the coffee texture juxtaposes brown with green. The other texture options include black, green and indigo. The necklace is also resizable.

kyoot3l Sweet up front, the A/D/E kneehigh boots from R2 turn surprisingly sexy in the back.

Credits to creators
Kyoot – Whitehaven Beach Dress (Mesh) (Rose) (50L in closing sale)
Zibska, Bambu (NEW, only at the Zenshi shop; ty Zib Scaggs!)
r2 A/D/E kneehigh boots{XS}beige (at Collabor88)
[e] Sound – White 01 (70% off)
Essences – Wednesday Light Skintone (at TDR Fusion)
poses: the first is built into an ottoman I bought at Kyoot and the second is from the Back up pack by bang!
Everybody GIMPs some time.

Might have to weaken

wick1lxxx Over the past year I’ve made several references to the inevitable, premature end of my career as a scholar. For years I was powerless to do anything about it because I was powerless to do anything, period. I’ve been given a reprieve by the uni, I’m back not just to writing but to writing fluently, and I feel strong. I was lucky enough to find a wonderful therapist: if I have someone in my corner I am more than able to fight the shit that’s keeping me down. But I’m certain that my recovery is due mostly to the antidepressants, which I should have started on years ago. Why didn’t I? Because lying on the couch unable to do my own work and spending less and less time doing anything for classes felt like a normal reaction to several awful life experiences and to the disappointment of being resented by students and discounted by many members of the college (though not by the people in my actual department). I also didn’t think I was actually depressed because the depression I’d experienced in my twenties came in the form of sadness, not inactivity. Crying every day was a sign that something was wrong. Given the way my life had been going over the past five years, it seemed entirely appropriate for me to be the human equivalent of the boulder that seals a tomb. I don’t think I ever truly believed the claim that when people are depressed they don’t know it or don’t know the extent of it. I believe it now. Does this sound like some dumb testimonial? I could say more, but I won’t. There’s one last thing that I need to write and hope to recall if things go badly again: when I am a valued member of a wonderful community, I do pretty fucking well. Being part of a wretched community that conspires actively to distribute quicksand-like suffering in a dreadful inversion of egalitarian principles? I go under.
wixsonxb On the fashion front, things are looking up with the opening of Genre, a fantasy maven’s dream, where I picked up the most flattering skin Voshie Paine has ever done for La petite morte. There are three makeups in one lovely skin tone, with elf ears and Lolas Tango appliers included. Each is only 100L. (I die.) The dress Portia wears here is a 70L reopening goodie from Violent Seduction’s outpost on the Cupcake sim. Finally, [e] (elikatira) is having a 70% off hairdo sale. (It’s supposed to be a retirement sale, but everything seems to be discounted.) Don’t be flummoxed if a mouse-over shows the usual price of the hair packs. When you click to buy you get the discount price.

Credits to creators (see above for location deets)
.la petite morte. wixson pale fantasy 2
Violent Seduction – S/M Versailles (Cream)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts
[e] Thrive – Red 05 (on sale)
Eclectica ‘Nouveau Leaves’-necklace
lassitude & ennui, Phoebe lace-up boots dusty rose / light wood
pose prop one: Trompe L’oeil, Dreamy Genie Bottle Skybox Green (old Collabor88)
pose prop two: oh damn, I’ll check for you…

So wearable

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I love a wearable demo! AnaLee Balut and her real-life daughter ShuShu Congrejo offer wearable demos for their mesh releases for ALB and ShuShu, respectively. A wearable demo gives one a clear sense of how the fabric will look and move. A blank demo that shows only the shape and fit of the garment or shoe is much less informative and far less tempting. I did a quick search of Marketplace and found wearable demos from Duh! and from Attic. Another creator who does them is Nene Flores of [Solita], and she has just issued a new mini-skirt for us to try out. (Her shop is also beautifully decorated, a good place to take photos.)

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Sometimes my av looks pretty. Today it’s thanks to an Xmas gift skin from Swallow and hunt-gift eyes from Epic.

Credits to creators
ALB, MELODY wool coat M DEMO by AnaLee Balut – MESH (on Marketplace)
ShuShu, FEEL FREE boot – DEMO MESH resizable (on Marketplace)
friday – Basic.Turtleneck (Gray) (on sale)
[e] Sound – Red 05 (NEW)
! Bliss Couture ! Holiday Mittens Gloves (Holiday hunt gift)
Swallow, Alexandra Merry Christmas (Group Gift in store)
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Face mole01
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Face mole02
*Epic Eyes* -NI2013H- Elfin Dream Eyes {Blue} (New in 2013 hunt gift)
Maitreya Allure Tights – Rose
The blouse in the second photo is from The Secret Store at November Collabor88, which is over.
pose: xbordeaux (not available)
location: Small town of green
I GIMPed the first photo a lot because I am trying to be more better at this. In the second photo, I botched a nose job.

Big booms

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I find myself expecting the bübs trend to go the way of the hamsters. Those who hope that the falsies will have more staying power should be encouraged to see some long-established creators, like Nylon Pinkney of Nylon Outfitters, Aikea Rieko of The Plastik and Aranel Ah of BOOM, making appliers for select items. They have opted to satisfy the insistent demands from Lolas Tango addicts (who have a lot of weight to throw around—if you know what I mean). For BOOM, Ms. Ah has created appliers for some of her sexiest numbers—the I Promise lingerie, the Carbon dresses, and the Day on the Yacht dresses among them. Here Portia wears the itty-bitty I Promise lingerie in turquoise and lipstick. I especially appreciate the fact that Ms. Ah specifies in the name which Lolas clothing layer to use with the applier. (It’s really impossible to figure this out by the cut of the top.) (P.S. I got the idea for this look from Ampersand Artful, who probably won’t beat me up for it. This time.)

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As you can see, the BOOM lingerie applier pack also provides a peep version. Unfortunately, soap bubbles are not included. Portia’s pose is one of a new set of saucy stances for big-busted girls by Katey Coppola of Glitterati. They feature Ms. Coppola’s signature sultriness, but can also be shot to bring out the humorous side of front-loaded life.

Credits to creators
*BOOM* I Promise lingerie (turqouise and lipstick) with NEW Lolas Tango applier sold separately (ty Aranel Ah!)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts
+Nuuna+ Winter 2012 Gift Skin with Lolas Tango skin matcher (open gift)
Mad’ – Pure Sugar # Freckles+teeth (old VIP group gift)
[e] Abbey – White 05
Plastik, Madre Halo 4
Contraption, Clemantlers (LB)
!Ohmai : Antique Bee Ring (Silver)
Glow, Diamond Bar Ring (With Love Hunt item)
Mandala, Takara White Bangles (with nails not shown)
pose one prop: Glitterati, Blind
pose two: Glitterati, Boobalicious
Grim Bros. sent out this cool personal snow emitter as an Xmas gift!
If I hadn’t GIMPed these photos you’d be blushing. You’re welcome.
Hammies are forever!

Needs some shelter

Portia discovered some depressing rain at the DQ Maze, where a player may win prizes if she tries out the bed and the harp. There’s also a movie theatre showing a wonderfully morbid cartoon. Waiting in vain for another three-prim zombie, Portia models some fall steals: her Reckless Abandon coat is only 55L at this week’s fi*fridays; and her !gO! skirt is only 90L at the current Perfect Wardrobe. Portia’s sophisticated Bag 0320 is a new mesh release from h.m.a.e.m, and it comes in black and rain-grey shades as well as the mokka shade shown here.

Anorak missed her bedtime and sees her skin sizzle in the still-strong sun of fall. Her drop-hem skirt is part of Sakide’s Huntress outfit for The Dirty Turkey Hunt. Her twill jacket with grungy shirt (all in one in mesh) is Sugar and Cyanide’s gift for the Womenstuff Hunt. Anorak’s sexy platform boots are a new release from LpD. The snake-skin-patterned Geena boot is available in black, shown here, brown and beige. There is also a matching bag.

Look one
!gO! *little hippie* skirt – XS (PerfectWardrobe) 
::RA:: One Button Coat [Grizzly]L
h.m.a.e.m. – bag 0320 – mokka – (NEW; ty Riri!)
** [ Riddle ] ** Pussybow Dress – Green
[Plastik]-Fierii Leggings-UP-Swamp Thing (Halluwin special still available)
[CheerNo] Boots Jonny (at TDR)
Glam Affair – Roza – Brr & Etci 02 BL (at current Collabor88)
[e] Locked – Blonde 02
*EED* Kiowa Earring~ Amber
LaGyo_Zarema gloves dappled (old gift)
LISP – Rainy Days Umbrella (tex change) (part of a pack)
location: Dwelling Quay Maze, Cherry Beach

Look two
*LpD* – *Geena* Boots Black (Mesh – M) (NEW; ty Nevery!)
[ SAKIDE ] Huntress Skirt S (TDTH)
**S&C** Alexandria Jacket – Black with shirt XS (Womenstuff Hunt)
Glam Affair – Roza Unnamed 01 (new VIP gg comes with and without freckles; 30L fee to join)
::DT:: ::JoLiE:: V2 Beautymarks Moles and Freckles (face)
– .HoD. – Compassion Piercing Set Prt. 1 – Silver Lining
Magika [Hair S] Tendency 03
Sedmikraska, Drippy Tights (Marketplace)
+:+WTG+:+ **C flat** choker and bangles (Nov VIP gg; fee to join)
MG – Ring – Ramona 77 (October Collabor88)
:::Sn@tch Nail Candy (Black/White Tips):::
LISP – Sunny Days Parasol (tex change) (part of a pack)
location: Wretched Hollow