21st century exodus

kmkiujyht I have this mesmerizing metallic dress by Aliza Karu of [AD] Creations. I style it with some futuristic hair by Eshi Otawara. The dress falls to the knee and the dreads inch past it. It’s a swelegant combo and I’m excited to shoot it. I get one medium shot and Exodus crashes. I get a low-res test shot of the entire ensemble—including some boots I picked up on sale at SLink—and Exodus crashes. I log in while watching TV and Exodus crashes. I walk and chew gum at the same time and Exodus crashes. I coordinate my blouse with my pants and Exodus crashes. I eat meat and rice at the same meal and Exodus crashes. Like a little bitch. (I do not care for that phrase, but it fits.) It doesn’t want me making connections.
nec2xxxx The next day I decide to make my pics extra spacey. I get one closeup of Portia on a fcking machine at Necronom VI and guess what? Okay, I don’t need to read the manual to know what to do. With Exodus, I mean, not the fcking machine. Stay focused on the fashion, people. Days later I finally get a chance to reinstall Exodus. I do it clean. Exodus crashes four times while my inventory loads. I backtrack to a version so primitive that it has no height offset. The thought of slidering to High and enabling Deferred Rendering sends me scurrying for my teddy bear. Which is long gone. I fear I may try to cuddle one of you if I go inworld again. Please accept this last cruddy photo of Portia as an invitation to admire the asymmetrical bangs of Betty by MissAllSunday Lemon for Wasabi Pills. Please also look past all those 0s and 1s to see a lovely group gift skin from Amesha Jewell of Aeva/Heartsick. Adorned with gemstones around the forehead, Airelle comes in 7 tones, including mesh feet.

Credits to creators

AD Creations, Waiting Metal Dress (NEW limited edition at Seasons of Couture; ty Aliza!)
Aeva/Heartsick, Airelle Gemstone (VIP group gift, group is free; pick up skin in store and check notices for box of feet)
shot two: Wasabi Pills, Betty Rouge (NEW; ty Miss Lemon!)
shot one: Eshi Otawara, Ninja Girl Majestic (not available)
Fleshtone, Narsha Vanity Cuff Silver (Sadly, Fleshtone has closed down)
Solidea Folies, Chameleion Ring
ellabella, Vae Face piercing (colour change)
oh yeah, GIMP had to hump these real good


Playtime for Portia


I officially inform my readers that Portia’s Swallow skin and WTG collar, which are both fabulous, are available at Limited Bazaar for another week. With this formal blog business concluded, I consider myself free to fulfill one of my fantasies: writing about my experience of sexual submission. (If that’s the first line of 50 Shades of Gray, it’s not a citation. I’ve invested too much time in reading unrespectable erotica to go legit in an airport bookstore.) This is newbie stuff for me, and still virtual in the sense that the man I play with lives far far away. I enjoy our complicity as we concoct a scenario. I believe that he likes me ungagged and uncompromising as much as he likes me gagged and pliable. (Of course, this relationship will fall apart and I will hate the [future] son-of-a-bitch, but probably not before server-side baking locks me out of SL. So you get to read the happy part of the story. Only my therapist will have to deal with the sad.) Nothing that I’ve read about BDSM prepared me for the emotional dimension of my recent experiences. I’ve discovered that the eroticization of feelings like humiliation and the need to please makes those feelings pleasurable. This reminds me of Freud’s concept of humour as a means of overcoming a threat to the ego, except in submission one experiences the threat rather than trying to evade it with a joke. Of course, both of these strategies involve play, which, for me, right now, is the foundation of the D/S relationship.
clpcolll The other astonishing thing about the emotions I’m describing is the simple fact that I’m having them. I have never felt humiliated by someone and never felt a bewildered hurt at being misused. This despite the fact that I’ve had lovers who did humiliate me and did mistreat me in garden-variety ways. In those situations I was aware of feeling anger and despair, reactive emotions rather than the emotions that preceded the reactions. Wanting to please someone has never been part of my emotional makeup. (Oh so symmetrically, I have never consciously wanted to be pleased by someone. My pleasure has always felt like my responsibility.) In the situation of playing sub to my dom, I feel an overwhelming need to please him, which, oddly enough, I enjoy. As much as submission forces, or allows, me to exist in a simpler and more malleable form of myself, it also permits, and perhaps requires, me to feel fierce. I’ve discovered that allowing myself to be diminished ritually has the effect of expanding me. (Not every time, of course, and not during every moment of a play session. If my blog entry makes you feel like trying this at home, consider that a penis gag is just uncomfortable if there’s no compelling reason to keep it on.)

Credits to creators
^^Swallow^^ Anja Limited Bazar Ivory (A)
Miss Shippe’s Studio, gold breasts like Midas bukake (gacha)
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
Dura, Girl 27(Black)resize
Countdown. Karolina Gold Corset S
+:+WTG+:+ **Black Queen** collar (at Limited Bazaar)
Fleshtone :: Vanity Studded Cuffs
HOC Industries – Thigh Boots (Extra Small)
PIDIDDLE – Sharp Nails – Silver Glitz (old gift)
ooo Studio and Gos, Pose Pouf
GIMPed but not PIMPed

The fear of gold

terror2crpI was about to hit the pay button for Paperbag’s silver Slique unitard when something inside me snapped. Or creaked. It was more like a creak. I realized that it was time to give up on the safety of silver and confront my longstanding fear of intense gold.


In real life, were I to wear even a subtle gold, it would look like a piece of Hanukkah geld had sprouted a whitehead. But this is not real life, and Portia doesn’t look like she needs to be squeezed (more).

Credits to creators
Paperbag, Slique Uni Metallics with Lolas Tango appliers (at Lyfe of Style)
Zibska, Zhenya (color and size change; at TGGS till the 13th; ty Zib Scaggs!)
h.m.a.e.m, midnight princess clutch ice [available in three other colours] (NEW; ty Riri Ninni!)
Swallow, Iman LB Panther with Lolas Tango applier [with three choices of awesome nips] (Limited Bazaar)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts (spine)
Miss C., Catch Black (fi*friday) [not the way it looks on the box: I had to add booN’s gathered raised hairbase]
MONS / Round Sunglasses Black Button (past TDRF)
MONS / Earrings – Basic Button (past TDRF)
Cliche, Citta black and gold heels
Fleshtone :: Vanity Studded Cuffs
pose prop: Nuwiggles, Forever Alone (not available)

Haunted hollow

She’s not dead. She’s just post-processed that way. Nomine’s 100L sale ends today, but the Cross Halter Dress is eternal. Munchflower Zaius lavished such care on the individualized fabrics of sixteen gorgeous variations on this gown that it was extremely difficult to choose just one to show you. While many are full-on goth, there are a number of variations that would work for 1930s role-play or an evening at The Gardens of Apollo. The dress is mesh and comes in only two sizes, so be sure to try the demo if you are used to XXS-XL sizing. Portia fit the Standard version just fine, but it was more fun to blow her up to fill out the Curvy version.

Credits to creators
Nomine, Mesh Cross Halter Dress Curvy – cherry
Glam Affair – Halloween skin GIFT
:[P]:-Soul Ink-Lothlorien
::DT:: ::JoLiE:: V2 Beautymarks Moles and Freckles
– .HoD. – Compassion Piercing Set Prt. 1 – Silver Lining
>TRUTH< Zaria – ivory
House of Fox, Feather Tippet (recent subo gift)
Bliensen + MaiTai – Samedi – Earring – Red Glass –
Fleshtone :: Narsha Vanity Cuff [Onyx/Gold]
:: PM :: Demonia Claws (VIP gift, small fee to join)
pose: PDA
location: Wretched Hollow

Fast food

I’ve never understood why people on first dates go to dinner before the movie. There’s nothing to talk about—except for him, him, him—if you haven’t seen the movie.

Plus, there’s no one to pay for your ticket if you eat your date for dinner.

Credits to creators
+:+WTG+:+[MESH] **Halloween Bats** pants(female-S) (group gift; 100L fee to join; also includes male version) [NB the alpha included covers the feet, so I used an alpha from another pair of pants]
Kyoot – Beneath My Bones Cropped Tank – Gold/Black
cStar Limited – Miss Scorpio 2012 – Amber.Blood.Perky (Midnight Madness; there’s also the usual inexpensive gacha but getting a realistic-shade skin with blood is tough)
La Malvada Mujer – Cinema Muto #5 [eyes]
Vestigium – Little Lamb [U] Dark
[JB] Juicy Box – Freedom Tattoo
[Shag] – Pussy Galore (roots) – afterglow
+:+WTG+:+ **Autumn Leaf** earrings and necklace (group only Midnight Madness)
:FANATIK: My bad girl ring Copper
Fleshtone :: Narsha Vanity Cuff [Onyx/Gold]
Silence – Gilded Horn Ring (not available)
MONS / DualColor eyes – green
The Muse Poses, Tyche (NEW; ty Audrey Cresci!)
This be Innsmouth. GIMP be minimal.

Monster mash-up

Portia’s got it together. I, on the other hand, am shaking sand out of my brain and coughing up er balls. So let me just say how grateful I am that people with more skills—both motor and imaginative—let me play with their creations.

Portia’s collar is part of Passion, one of Aliza Karu’s extravagant new Avenue anniversary gowns, which you can see in full in Lib Descent’s stunning photo. Her hair flower is new from Pididdle at My Attic. It’s resizable, but I didn’t blow it up too big lest you think I’m showing off. Or something. Portia’s shiny leather skirt is new from Fleshtone. It comes in black, blue and mustard as well as red.

Credits to creators
[AD] Passion (NEW at Avenue Cinque event for two more weeks; ty Aliza!)
Fleshtone::HyunaLeatherSkirt[S] Red (NEW; ty StevenZ and Gisele!)
Acid and Mala. Bone Corset (part of outfit)
[Miseria] Batty Corset – Blood (NEW at Cinema; ty Athena!
PIDIDDLE – Ceramic Flower Headpiece – Rose. (NEW at My Attic; ty Brutus!)
booN KGI848 hair black
booN gathered raised hairbase black
Fleshtone :: Narsha Vanity Cuff [Onyx]
La Malvada Mujer- Claws
MG – Ring – Ramona 77 (@ Collabor88)
*GF* Halloween Bat Tights (awesome part of Halloween gift)
{Zeery} Inspirations: :: Verta-Break Heels::
-Glam Affair- Roza – The Arcade Gacha Events 08
Lovely Mi – Pagliacci Full
Cheap Makeup- Strong eyebrows
– DAMNED – GreenDream3 Tattoo Fresh (old hunt gift)

If this be swag

Don’t hate my swag. I figured if I couldn’t do swag right, I’d just do this.

Portia’s awesome owl hat is the Angels and Demons Creations Halloween event gift at the RMK sim. Her swaggin’ necklace is new from Riri Nini at h.m.a.e.m. Designed to complement the new Elba dress from LpD, the I’m Hippy necklace comes in silver as well as gold, and it can be blowed up real big!

Credits to creators
[AD] owl cap (gift at Rokumeikan sim for Halloween 2012; ty Aliza!)
Tentacio, Ako Tee-Shirt – S red (70L at Swag Fest)
PaperBag. Leather & Wool Dress (Grey) (worn underneath)
h.m.a.e.m. for LpD – i’m hippy mesh necklace gold – w/resizer (NEW; ty Nevery and Riri!)
^^Swallow^^ Bad Ring Gold & Pink
Fleshtone :: Vanity Studded Cuffs
Fleshtone :: Sheer Tights [Garter]
][doli. Spiked Knees Gold (old hunt gift)
[Gos] Triumph Boots V2 – Fem – Black
IT GIRLS -Daph Pale / Dark Brows
Mad’ – Flakes Lips – Red (teeth)
.: vive nine :. Thick Liner in ToKill (recent VIP gift)
*NOYA* designs VAMP Eyelashes (subo gift)
poses: old ones by Tea
location: Virtual Decay
GIMPed and Pixlred for your pleisure