Gone, not a goner

cirino by ZibskaI was gone. Computer caught the flu; I traveled on business. It’s recovered; I’ve returned. I also discovered erotic hypnosis,* sooooo I may not be totally back to blogging. There’s time, however, to be mesmerized by the shimmeringly strict lines of Zibska’s Cirino necklace, which comes with a matching circlet. It’s colour and size change—Portia is wearing hers shrunken. There’s time also to stare deep into Portia’s gold-and-grape Elf Eyes, one of fifteen new particoloured pairs from MUDSKIN.

Zibska, Cirino Necklace—comes with Circlet not shown (NEW; colour and size change at The Secret Affair; ty Zib!)
[ MUDSKIN ]_Elf Eyes#9 (NEW at Lost and Found; ty Sopha!)
*eha~ Sang Black hair (not available: dates back to 2010!)
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-STELLA v1.1
Glam Affair, Mila 13 (Lelutka Head applier) (gacha)
Maitreya, Lara Mesh Body 3.4
[Foxes]Leggings – Maitreya – Leathers (past 50L Friday)
pose: ZZANG, from the Long pack
*If I remember correctly, I am supposed to have an orgasm next time I open a door. Of course, I am also supposed to not remember that. UPDATE; I can only speculate that the time it takes to open a door is too brief for a woman to have an orgasm. It takes a while for us to spiral up to one; or we have four in a few minutes. A bank-vault door that is too heavy to pull open in a trice might be more appropriate. If you can’t access your neighborhood vault—or don’t want to commit a felony—go to a drugstore and try opening one of the automatic doors by hand. Oof. Unf.

In the hanging garden

all mod cons bwHe called to cancel our date on Friday afternoon. His father is seriously ill. He wouldn’t see him till Sunday. He couldn’t think about anything else. I cried on public transportation for 75 minutes. If it had been a crowded rush-hour train all the bodies would have afforded me some privacy. (One very nice man did give me a napkin and encouraged me to open it to get the most out of it.) In texts, I tried to suggest alternatives to the elaborate rope scene my top and I had been planning. I was selfish, but… I don’t know him very well. It’s possible a little light bondage is the perfect thing to relieve his stress. Tops are said to lack control in their lives and enjoy controlling the bottom’s body; for rope tops this extends to the intense focus of the tying. (Bottoms are said to seek relief from obligations to act. [Obligations to act might be called “power” if most bottoms were men.] My career as a professor saddles me with more responsibility and authority than I want. And yet I’ve never been in a scene that freed me from making decisions. The possibility of nerve damage keeps me alert.) (There’s RL lingerie and, yes, some tasteful avatar nudity after the dreaded cut.) Continue reading

Ear play is not my kink

no fond farewellI spent two weeks trying to write—and avoiding writing—an account of a partial suspension rope scene that left me bummed, not blissed, out. I want to be truthful about the downsides of BDSM. It’s not always ecstatic, and it can go wrong in ways that aren’t as notable and traumatic as injury or consent violation. I got bogged down writing up the details of the rigging, comparing the depressing partial suspension to the uplifting partial my regular top and I did the previous month. Suffice to say, the dispiriting tie was not torture, just challenging, an unintended predicament. The predicament extended beyond the rigging in both space and time. We were at a pro dungeon party and other attendees were sitting on a couch directly across from us, watching us play as though we were television (premium channel, I hope). I think this made both of us tense. More importantly, I had spent more than a week feeling all colours of upset because my top would not commit to a date to scene. He needs to get it together. But I had fucked up by agreeing that we could “play it by ear,” even though I know that I am not capable of being laid back or spontaneous. Ear play, it’s not my kink. (You’ll get an eyeful under the cut, so don’t proceed if eye play is not, y’know…) Continue reading


peer pressured Today’s photos are just the result of fooling around with a few cool things. First, Stella, a LeLutka head, something which initially I refused to buy because I can only afford to buy skins when they are discounted and I found no deals to steal. As soon as I saw Glam Affair’s Liss gacha I happily set about choosing a mesh noggin, comparing all until I realized that the differences among them are misleading because the whole line communicates the same general aesthetic. (For some reason that aesthetic makes for some very flat faces.) Second, the 3.4 version of Maitreya’s Lara body, which I will use more now that the options are more comprehensive and I discovered a group of fanatical users who generate tips for making it work. (I thought I was the only one who had been thrown back to the SL of old, when one had to reapply, rebake, relog or relent.) Last but not least, an r2 A/D/E dress I somehow forgot to blog. Rei seems to have skipped Collabor88 for September, which is a shame because I have developed a simple very satisfying formula for shooting each month’s offering: r2 outfit + tattoo + chains + outer space.

r2 A/D/E reijin[XS] copper
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-STELLA v1.1
Glam Affair, Liss 11 India (gacha at Kustom9 and yard sales) If you have an extra Liss 1 Africa, I would love to buy or trade for it.
Maitreya, Mesh Body – Lara V3.4
Tattoo Mania, Joon (VIP group gift, NO fee to join)
~Tableau Vivant~ Healy – Tie & Dye I (old gacha or gift?)
. a i s l i n g . WristCuffs (came free from a bondage prop demo)
R.icielli – SKULL EARRING /GRAFF (olde)
pose 2: Grafica, from Stand Tall pack (thanks Alyx!)
shot at Era of Salvation landing point

Customer servzall, 2073

throne out 2073. Whoever assembled the new La-Z-Boi forgot to stock the mini-bar and weapons orbs. Continue reading

If humiliation spoke

dangerousnerves In today’s post I try to put into words the feelings I experienced in a D/s scene of erotic humiliation. Writing this post was not easy because it’s partly about life with my father, who was a jerk. You are going to be reading an abridged version of a longer piece I couldn’t finish because I couldn’t resolve my thoughts about him. As I intimated in my August 4th post, I am following Freud’s dictum that adult neurosis—of the kind that makes for ordinary misery—can be traced back to childhood experiences. (That is, it’s normal to be unable to resolve one’s thoughts about one’s parents.) If this doesn’t sound like your type of read, resist the compulsion to click.   Continue reading

Hottie for the hell of it

waiting for the miracle to come Very occasionally I dress Portia up, like she’s a doll and I am a toddler intent on being intent, bringing beauty into the world because I can. I had a strong feeling that Portia should not go to Collabor88 without upping her fashion game. (Not that anyone could see her. Her feet stood next to her a la Magritte, and the torso of her Maitreya body floated around her in some pastiche of Balla and Picasso rehabbing Barbie.) I checked out the 55L sale at Wayne and chose a slinky, high-slit dress for my lady, who rarely works it this hard. She gets naked, outer-spacey and semi-coutureish, but she’s too down-to-earth (or uptight) to turn hottie for the hell of it.

WAYNE / Venus Dress India – M (55L in store)
WAYNE / Raisa Pumps [for SLINK feet] (colour and strap change) (55L on Marketplace)
.ET. Magic Ride Necklace Gold (old gacha)
ieQED, wright.shades.wood
Zibska, Keane ~ Earrings (part of s set; colour and size change)
[The Forge] Boho Bracelet, (Gold) (gacha)
-Glam Affair – Yolandi Africa – 02 A (gacha)
-dDx- Ohna (Natural Ginger) hair
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.4 with Lara hands
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XXS – High
poses: Marukin new location opening gift

Don’t call me kitten, or do (I can’t decide)

dont callmekitten Believe it or not, one of my soft SL limits is sporting a collar that’s tagged with a sweet word like “Princess” or “Precious” or “Kitten.” IRL I do not like being called a rope “bunneh”: I’m not a pea-brained, silent furry creature that’s fun to pet! (I just like being tied up. And petted.) It is the case, however, that I admire lines like tsg and Altair. When I saw the cute Kokoro collar, Altair’s fundraising contribution to the Lexi Project, I figured that it might be okay to buy it and take it for a spin. For charity. I set the tag to “Kitten,” collared my cute alt Hedda—instead of the more womanly Portia—and was not surprised that despite the good cause “Kitten” felt demeaning. (Don’t venture under the cut if you think veiled nudity is just as bad.) Continue reading

Think galactically

telepathyZib Scaggs is the kind of creator who likes it when her bloggers do odd things with her works. At least I think she is. Today I’ve combined the outsized interlocked rings of the new Titan hairdo with the orbit of another new style, Enceladus. As usual Zib’s hairstyles, like the Alerio set of men’s necklace and cuffs, are colour and size change. A constellation of new ‘dos await you at Hair Fair, where Zib is one of the most charitable creators with a 75% donation to Wigs for Kids.

Zibska ~ Alerio Necklace and Cuffs for men (NEW—colour and size change; at The Secret Affair; ty Zib!)
Zibska ~ Titan with Hairbase ~ 05* in tattoo and TMP (NEW—colour change and resize at Hair Fair; ty Zib!)
Zibska ~ Enceladus—Orbit only [modded] (NEW—colour change and resize at Hair Fair; ty Zib!)
Maitreya, Mesh Body – Lara V2.1
no. 7 Geometry Lashes
Glam Affair – Lilith – Africa 02 D
{S0NG} :: Chibi~ Eye Abyss
pose by Riri Nini not available