Deserted rose

Whenever I shoot a fetishistic outfit by r2 A/D/E, I know that I have to travel to outer space. Once I get there, my impulse is to find some kind of kinky set-up to match the sexy plastic outfit. But there isn’t a lot of rope bondage off-world. I did manage to find a medical clinic at Insilico, where I could imagine my girl in a submissive posture as some kind of pleisure-bot in need of a tune up.
My other impulse when I shoot creator Rei2 Aya’s outfits is to present a strong female type, a warrior/philosopher/transmogrified dust mote who dresses just like the rest of her people. This could mean that for her kind, outfits that provide generous peaks at butt and bust are the equivalent of our jeans and a t-shirt, or something more formal, like a business suit. Of course, this could also mean that her planet is filled with pervs.
Still learning to love my av when she’s wearing Simone’s head. She is not Portia, she is not Anorak, she is not Hedda. Maybe she needs her own name. Orion flashed into my mind and then Aurora. I’m going to work on this. No more “or” sounds and no more names ending in “a.”

Credits
NEW r2 A/D/E ensemble at Collabor88
r2 A/D/E baika bra[pink]Maitreya sold with panties
r2 A/D/E baika[pink]Maitreya coat with sleeves
r2 A/D/E baika boots[pink]Maitreya
:[p]:- Salvie Earring Pastella
booN, KGI848 hair black (an oldie)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
NEW Chameleon, Rati tattoo gold (at Chapter Four)
LeLutka Simone 3.0
SCS, Classic eyebrows black
NEW MAD’, Flora face tattoo
MAD’, Infected tattoo for mouth (past group gift)
Glam Affair, Rachel Exotic 9 (past gacha)
photo 1 pose by Marukin
shot at various parts of Insilico

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Black rose kimono


Moon over the moon in the latest elegant kimono from Silvery K, which comes with several fabric-change options for everything but the outer layer of the robe. I have to say that the Japanese custom of combining multiple fabrics in varying palettes and textures freaks the hell out of me. I had to work very hard to stop trying to match everything.I like this pile of pots, which I found in the only classy spot, next to the food cart, at Anico, an anime / manga hangout.
Mostly showing off what a pretty lady I made out of LeLutka’s Simone head with some help from La Malvada Mujer makeup.

Credits
NEW *:..Silvery K..:*KimonoMesh(Papion Rose)Black —includes rose geta (and rose choker, kimono wrap, and obi roses not shown) (at Japonica)
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 3.0
Glam Affair ( Lelutka Heads ) LiuLy ( Artic ) 02
La Malvada Mujer – Nefelina Eyeshadow Omega applier (new group gift or 10L on Marketplace if it’s not in notices)
La Malvada Mujer – Infinite Sadness goldstars Omega (10L on Marketplace)
.ARISE. Ela Brows / Black lelutka applier
LeLutka, Rogue Bun (came with Stella head)
AsteroidBox. Choke Rope // Blue (kinky gacha at Kagami)
La Malvada Mujer – Persiguiendo el Dragon[horns] (not available)
Chop Zuey, Tensha Beads Texture Change Earrings (past gift)
_CD_ Lilly Earring (past gift)
White Widow, Earthlings tattoo (past POE hunt gift)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
The pose props in the first two pictures are among dozens kindly collected for everyone’s use by Anne Maertens at Comhar

How silly looking is Simone?

You may have noticed that I almost never use a mesh head. I own LeLutka’s Stella and Simone, whom you see here today in The Skinnery’s Maite skin in champagne and eyebrows and lipstick from adored. Adored, by the way, is running an advent calendar from now till December 24, which seems to promise all the lipsticks a Catwa or LeLutka mesh head could ever wear. There are also some tempting items on sale. Neither Stella nor Simone is as beautiful as my classic avs Portia and Anorak, who wear only Glam Affair (or old skins from Birdy). GA isn’t doing system skins any more. Neither are they doing enough skins for LeLutka heads for me to put more effort into embracing Simone. This means that I am stuck using my old Glam Affair system skins, which is fine since a lot of them still look good. Fine but ironic: I remain loyal to the product but the producer is no longer making money from me. Feeling convinced that I am going to fall too far behind the times to keep blogging, I headed over into The Skinnery, an old favorite of mine, and searched out something that would work for Simone. That’s when I realized that nothing works for Simone because Simone doesn’t work. I don’t like the included shape and, try as I might, I can’t create a face that doesn’t look cartoony. When I turn on moods and expressions, the contrast between Simone’s silly elastic face and the seriously slinky Lara body is unbearable. And completely unworkable for photos of bondage wear. It’s possible that I will have to create a caricatured body to go with Simone’s long nose, big eyes and large lips. Today, however, I am happy that a little bit of vintage styling made my cartoony Simone appear sexy.

The Skinnery, Maite champagne (comes with shape not shown; Maitreya Lara applier for champagne skin is a separate purchase)
#adored – exalted lips – sexpot edition {lelutka} (also a Catwa version; on sale right now and maybe all this week)
#adored – spellbound brows – molten metal edition {omega}
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 3.0
FGInc.+ Mariposa tattoo Outline, Flamingo (this is a sinuous symmetrical design, which covers arms and back as well as chest; Omega applier and system layer; gacha at Imaginarium)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
=Zenith=cairen dress (Sky) fitted mesh (past gacha)
tram D428 hair / maroon (an old hairdo without which I would fall into a coma)
tram -shizuku earring (group gift; group is free to join)
shot at Ethereal City, which Noon Jaxon cultivates with dedication

Portrait of a glam opium eater

I’m perimenopausal. (Hmm. As openings go, that one might be less than compelling, unless you’ve never heard the word perimenopausal, which I hadn’t until a friend used it a few years ago. Technically, one is periM until menopause, which is not a phase but the moment at which one has not had a period for 12 months. It takes a long time to say periM, so I just say I’m going through “the change.”) One apparent perk of “the change” arrived two years ago: I stopped craving cola, which I’d drunk in excess since I was 20, my skin cleared up after 35+ years of spots, and PMS disappeared. Gee, I thought, free at frickin’ last. Who knew what joys would come when my body started giving up on me as a sexual being? And how ironic that it started when I decided to be a sexual being again (in the rope realm). The acne, the PMS and a teensy bit of the cola craving are back. I spent the last six weeks poking at zits again. And I am now so depressed that I spent the last two days lying on the couch doing nothing except taking pics in SL. So here you go, this is how I’ve been keeping myself occupied while I wait for a period that’s late for no sexual reason.
Apparently all the hair in the [e] store is going to be retired soon, so go now. And yeah, I know this outfit is combining Chinese and Japanese elements. Throw an abacus at me.

Credits
[CX] Fengyue – Red//Type.2 ( Maitreya ) (@ Uber, I think) NEW
*:..Silvery K..:*Japanese pipe(Lotus Gold)C be careful when you buy: two of the four pipes on display are transfer only! (@ We <3 role play) NEW
*{( konpeitou )}* sweetie – 7 – clogs (@ Lootbox gacha, bought on Marketplace) NEW
[e] Betty (Essentials pack)
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 2.7
Glam Affair, Kinga applier
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
alme Modern gift pink manicure (Tres Chic birthday gift)
[Glitzz] Zania Earring (Tres Chic birthday gift)
[CX] Pierced Septum (Gold) (idk where this came from, an old gift, maybe SLB13)
MiWardrobe, Japanese coin – bracelet (OMG, so old! I loved MiWardrobe)
idk where I got the tat
Xplicit, Pet’s Cage
location: Opium Den (adult)

Misunderstood

Again, I’ve held off on posting pix because I was trying to write about a recent scene. Each time I went back to the writing, I sucked a little more life out of it. Five minutes ago, while I was on my way home from buying groceries, I realized that I have something else to offer my readers, something more than news of a clearance sale. Not long ago, I was lucky enough to participate in an excellent GRUE (Graydancer’s Ropetastic Unconference Extravaganza, obvs). In an unconference, the participants create the classes. One session was a discussion about pain and humiliation. I love humiliation. I dislike pain. As in, pain is painful; but also as in, pain doesn’t do anything for me. I thought that taking the class might help me find a humiliating side of pain. But the the discussion leader is like me. She explained that being slapped fast and hard in the face just hurts physically. It doesn’t humiliate her. Being slapped less roughly, as if she were being rebuked for bad behavior, makes her cheeks burn with shame. That burn, by the way, comes from the inside, in the same way a blush does, not from the sting of the slap. I chimed in early in the conversation, saying that what I like is discomfort rather than pain. (Discomfort is not the right word, because it’s not strong enough, but I couldn’t think of another term.) The discussion leader nodded and then asked me how I feel when someone deals out pain, and I replied, without thinking about it, “misunderstood.” This is not “misunderstood” as in being mistaken for a snob instead of recognized as reserved. This is “misunderstood” as in experiencing a sadness that must date back to childhood because it is the sadness of a very small person. And it goes unrecognized when someone smacks me for the sake of the smack.
The pictures in today’s post took mere minutes to shoot. On both occasions, I was just goofing around with my av, who is dressed for an ordinary day as a ghoul on the grid in the image above. In the first picture, she is only half styled. Practically naked without her tattoo and cuffs and gun or cuddlebunny. And her hair, sorry to say, is now gone forever, because creator Kavar Cleanslate is bringing new textures to the Exile line. Re:Japonica and the March Collabor88 are over, so you will have to stalk the Air and R2 A/D/E shops until their goodies arrive on the shelves.

Pic 1
R2 A/D/E, Shun dress and bodysuit
Lelutka, Simone Head (Bento)
Glam Affair, Adley applier (50L Friday version)
Exile, Liaison Wildcards
Eclectic Randomness, Mesh Doll Cabinet pose prop
Pic 2
Air, Toriko pose prop
Pixicat, Ambrosia dress mini version
Red Mint, hair no 39 Fantasy o.7-9
1mm, tabi and geta (past gift)

Too many to march

standanddeliversannaWhen the organizers of the women’s march realized 50,000 people might show up, they canceled the planned u-turn route so the crowd wouldn’t run into itself. When 250,000 showed up today, they had to cancel what was left of the march, a short, straight shot from the park to Federal Plaza. We marched it all the same. This was a beautiful day. It was a rally, not a protest, but there were dozens of resistance-inspiring signs and slogans. My favourite by far was “The pussy grabs back.”
stalking-nurseWounded and without the Affordable Care Act, which the Republicans repealed in the dead of night. Now they’ll defund it. They have no plan to replace it.

Credits
r2 A/D/E tsubaki[white&red]Maitreya (at Collabor88: the two items are sold separately; there are also cool armwarmers)
r2 A/D/E tsubaki boots[white&red]Maitreya (at Collabor88: the two items are sold separately)
Violetility – Voodoo Doll Heart and Spine CHERRY (at Memento Mori)
Nox, Spanked butt (includes butt, chest, vag and vag and butt, classic layers, TMP and OMEGA appliers) (at ROMP)
Suicide Gurls, Asrid Unisex tattoo (VIP group gift—fee to join)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
La Petite Morte, india v2 albino lelutka applier tone 1 (on sale for 100L—go upstairs to find it)
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-STELLA v1.6
[LeLutka]-BRIGITTE hair – Marilyn (on Marketplace)
{S0NG} :: Cupid~ Blue Eye
Shot at Insilico

Hot for the holidays

homefortheholidaysShooting half-naked avs stresses me out, so I figured I’d keep this holiday post clean. I feel discouraged about shooting sexy pics because I know my audience will be limited, and I can imagine all the people out there who think nudity and eroticism are dirty. I also know that there are plenty of people who tolerate representations of heteronormative sexuality but condemn all other kinds as perversions. I’m a pervert. Although it wasn’t a goal, I’d like to think that my posts on Pleisure have “put a human face” on kinksters. This is not easy to do. I’d been seeing my therapist for two years before I began exploring BDSM. I told her about it right away—finally I had a reason to leave my house! She could have freaked out, could have tried to pathologize me and treat me, but she didn’t. One day, after we’d talked once again about the trouble I was having negotiating successfully with my partner before our scenes, she said, by way of conclusion, “It’s very human.” At first I was shocked that she had thought it might be inhuman. But then I realized that I hadn’t expected the humanness either, hadn’t understood that I would be entering into ordinary frustrating and/or fun relationships with ordinary people. In my ignorance about BDSM, I had imagined that a bad person and a good person go into a room and have a harrowing experience without sharing anything else. That’s what I get for reading all that D/s kidnap erotica! (Which I am not throwing out. Or lending to you.)
bunnbunsThat adorable heart-shaped butt comes from the bunny outfit, which is an old group gift you can still pick up at COCO. It predates mesh avs, but I managed to get it to work with my Lara. If I hadn’t stumbled across this outfit I would not have been inspired to blog for Xmas this far in advance. The end of the year always makes me sentimental, so I decided that for this post I would try out one of the many skins I didn’t have time to blog when Sopha Portal was doing MUDSKIN. Unfortunately, she shut down her shop and didn’t come back as promised. Check your inventory and see if you’ve got some of her skins stashed away. Or check Marketplace where you can buy gachas on resale. I hope that you have a wonderful holiday, no matter which one you are celebrating.

Credits
*COCO*_ChristmasBunny_ group gift (no fee to join)
MUDSKIN/My Ugly Dorothy, MIDO Lelutka applier (not available)
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-STELLA v1.6
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
Katatonik, arm tattoo, an old Oz Easter gift, not available
tram, F623 hair(L) / bluegray group gift (no fee to join)
{S0NG} :: Cupid~ Blue Eye
Pic 1: Opulence Poses, Sweet Tooth [comes with candy canes to hold] (at Second Level)
Pic 2: OOO Studio, Allegory pack (probably not available)
shot at December will be Magic Again and a private location near Frisenland (yah, I trespass when I find good interior design)
Windlight: Tricolour Sky by Annan Adored, tweaked by me

Bliss as a bottom

pale hedda This weekend I had the pleasure of demo bottoming for a shibari (kinbaku) class at the local dungeon. This is something I never thought I would be able to do, on account of my advancing age, my funny face and my generous stomach, not to mention my inexperience. (Where “experience” means two or three years participating in a committed heteronormative relationship with weekly painful, upside-down suspensions mimicking circus-style professional rope performances and/or high-end photographs of full-time bondage models.) It’s true that I wasn’t asked to bottom, but when I found out that the man I’d started playing with was going to teach a class, I volunteered by text and he responded with an (admittedly non-stoked-sounding) “okay.” In January at Shibaricon, I had stepped up as a last-minute bottom when he, a total stranger, needed a partner for a private class with a fabulous rigger. That was an extraordinary experience. I thought it was only fitting that we recreate it. We’d played a couple of times before we met for this week’s rehearsal. I had discovered that he is really mean and prefers to be brutal, and I am not someone who wants to be brutalized. (I had, it’s true, enjoyed grappling with him and trying to evade his assaults. The vicious hairpulling and unrelenting pressure-point-pushing were tough but … well, let’s just say that, if he ever asks, I will not hesitate to deny any interest in breast slapping and nipple twisting.) So I arrived at his place feeling like there wasn’t much hope that we’d be anything but teammates for a single class and thereafter wave to each other at munches. But then we rehearsed and my feelings changed.
pale dramaWe discovered that my top doesn’t have to thump me to be mean. He has the option of meanly keeping me in line, something I never thought I’d allow. The type of rope he was set to teach is derived from Yukimura Haruki’s style and philosophy. It’s designed to exercise close control over the bottom’s body, and yet because the techniques of capturing and tying the bottom use the bottom’s body “against” her, I got to be far more mobile than I could be in a typical partial suspension with impact play. An aspect of this style that I particularly enjoy—because I like to feel humiliated—is the top exposing the bottom’s body. The day we rehearsed, I was wearing a long skirt. My top reached out along my extended leg to slowly pull the skirt up till it covered only a few inches of my upper thigh. When I half-whined “My leg is cold,” he responded “Tough.” This made me giggle on the inside, so he wouldn’t hear me, because it was the perfect rebuff of a gratuitous complaint. When we taught the class a few days later, he gave me the option to demonstrate how fruitless it would be to struggle. That seemed lame, so I said “ummm” and then tried to escape completely. He brought me down easily. I yelped and groaned and knelt with my head to the mat to demonstrate my complete surrender. He rotated me 45 degrees so that the class could see the next part of the demo and then shocked the hell out of me when he smacked my foot to drive my leg back into the proper position. I deserved that, exactly that, as a correction to my behavior, and it was perfectly satisfying. He felt that way too. (There’s nudity under the cut. For realz.) Continue reading

I, embodied

boosterI went to my first-ever yoga class about six weeks ago. Okay, I went to one when I was 20-something: turning red in the face, sweating, and failing to breathe inclined me to think I was not cut out for yoga. Being instructed to feel at one with the earth almost drove me out of the room: it was the late 80s, so I was a hard-core deconstructionist, meaning that anything remotely spiritual—or just plain connection-oriented—was suspect. (Everything was opiate of the masses. I’ve softened over time. Now I would say it’s weed of the many.) Twenty-five years later, I decided to try again because I want to be a more flexible and physically stronger rope bottom. On the first day, I felt completely at home because rope classes have accustomed me to sitting on the floor wearing a pair of leggings and a singlet—and wondering if I should stretch before the lesson. I debated whether I could apply to yoga the same reasoning I bring to sadomasochistic rope—there’s no sense in stretching if it’s supposed to hurt. (There’s hurt and there’s hurt. Eustress good. Distress bad.) (Speaking of, there’s nothing dangerous under the cut.) Continue reading