To play or not to play

Anyone who has been reading Pleisure knows that my fall 2016 rope walkabout was rough. I called one scene because I was being mauled. A Canadian man I really liked, and who seemed to really like me, ghosted. Etc. So I decided to be more careful about who I play with by getting to know a rigger before scening. After a successful first coffee, a potential partner and I made a plan to play a few weeks later. This seemed like a distant event, so I suggested we have dinner sometime in the intervening weeks. His dinner conversation was deeply discouraging. He told me he’d read my Fet profile and couldn’t give me what I want. He told me that he hates the idea of doing anything and that he loathes leaving his house even though he always enjoys himself when he goes out. He didn’t take me up on either of my sexy conversational gambits. I listened to what he had to say and responded patiently, but he persisted, insisted “It’s not you, it’s me.” I was remarkably calm when I told him that I didn’t see myself playing with someone who dreaded the idea of it. “Anticipation, shared between me and my partner, is essential,” I said. “I want to play with someone who is excited about playing with me. I’m not going to come up with a cute outfit for person who might not even show up.” I told him I’d think it over. So there I was, seriously considering passing up a rare opportunity to play, and to bottom for the first time since December, and not feeling like it was the end of the world. I might not be able to do better, but I was glad I could say I want better.
The next morning I texted a friend: “Am I getting to know people in order to weed out the idiots, or in order to find out how idiotic they are and adjust my expectations accordingly?” Her answer was “Both?” I was heading out of town so I had five days to think about what I wanted to do. My potential partner found some enthusiasm in the meantime. At dinner I told him I’m curious about far more than what my profile specifies, and I named some of my fantasies. This hadn’t moved him. Telling him we probably shouldn’t play and I’d get back to him apparently warmed his feet. After I got back into town, I contacted him and suggested we keep the date but not actually scene. “Let’s just do some rope.” He is now sending upbeat texts that conclude with exclamation marks. My suggestion that we aim for discomfort and dishevelment elicited a smiley face. Now I am the one who is reserved. I have an outfit in mind, but it’s not cute: a long silky voluminous dress will challenge the rigger in him rather than put my body on display. And I’ve resolved to negotiate for a hands-off aftercare—no cuddling, no compliments, just conversation. About carabiners, perhaps.

Credits
O V H [aka Overhigh] .Agnes Coat . maitreya (at Versus; this is an amazing steal because it’s a pack featuring four colours—black, grey, white and olive green)
AZOURY – Suzon Headwear with fur&rhinestones Gold [Black]
Le Morte – Lock3d Faith – Black collar
fri. – Sugar.Platforms (Lilac) for Maitreya Lara
Ama. : Taken : Black [face tat: may have been retired or may still be on sale] (I love Ama.)
9 RARE -[TWC]- Blossom tattoo maitreya (recently past gacha; not taking this off ever)
-Glam Affair – Sia Artic tone – 02 G (just plain old)
{S0NG} :: Chibi~ Abyss Eye
mijn.botique accessories / studded earrings n.2 (not available)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
Marukin poses
[Kres], Kinky Neon Signs Gacha 10 [Obey] (at Kinky Monthly)

We pictured me in rope

portia says relax My former top and I did a photo shoot. It was one of three bad experiences that contributed to the break up I detailed two posts ago. He wanted photos of a bottom in agony but he didn’t tell me that going into the shoot. He put me into an awkward pose, combining a gunslinger tie for the arms and a futo momo. He blindfolded me as we’d agreed to protect my identity, and gave me a rope gag when I said I was craving one. So far so good. He then occasionally thumped and shot me while I grew increasingly upset, but not because I was scene-time suffering. We were suspended some place between everyday interaction and scening, and that was not a place in which I felt safe. I should have stopped it. The larger problem turned out to be the photos themselves. I looked like limbs attached to a belly fattened to feed a cannibal army. The rodent-like contours of my face were not hidden by the blindfold or rope gag. The single-source stark light made everything worse. The good bits were shadowed: my breasts looked like collapsed lungs. The bad bits were lit like a prison yard during an escape attempt. I panicked at the thought of these photos going online. When I called to ask my rigger not to post them, he was disappointed, and I apologized for letting him down. I couldn’t have anticipated the way I would react. Then I asked him to try to Photoshop one of the pics, and he instantly refused: his style is to capture real people having real experiences and Photoshop is fakery. The visible distortions of my face and body were the point for him. The sight of a suffering bottom is “hot” to him; I am “hot” to him; hence the photos are beautiful. I never find rope photos hot. They can be exquisite, but the suffering bottom has to be glorious enough to transcend abjection. I transcended nothing. Continue reading

Steam and sheen

poised Now that I don’t feel a rush to blog new items I have become an inept photographer. For three of my last four posts I have had to do two shoots. Deciding that the first one is terrible, I do a second that is no better. If I were trying to honour a commitment to a creator I would do the shoot and post it even if I wasn’t ecstatic about my work. The one upside of being unsatisfied is feeling driven to find a setting better than the one in the first batch of pix. Did you know that you can tag a sim with BDSM and steampunk and the grid doesn’t groan or grind to a horrified halt?! On my first night shooting the new Yayoi top and skirt by r2 A/D/E, Portia visited the classy German BDSM club Cafe SMerte. The furnishings are all beautiful leather pieces and the space itself is more of a re-purposed factory rather than a pinioned and pistony pleasure machine. That reminds me, if you don’t like the modern sybians you’ve encountered in other sex sims, you should check out the lovely olde-fashioned version plonked at the feet of one of SMerte’s leather club chairs. Continue reading

Hottie for the hell of it

waiting for the miracle to come Very occasionally I dress Portia up, like she’s a doll and I am a toddler intent on being intent, bringing beauty into the world because I can. I had a strong feeling that Portia should not go to Collabor88 without upping her fashion game. (Not that anyone could see her. Her feet stood next to her a la Magritte, and the torso of her Maitreya body floated around her in some pastiche of Balla and Picasso rehabbing Barbie.) I checked out the 55L sale at Wayne and chose a slinky, high-slit dress for my lady, who rarely works it this hard. She gets naked, outer-spacey and semi-coutureish, but she’s too down-to-earth (or uptight) to turn hottie for the hell of it.
gingersnaps

Credits
WAYNE / Venus Dress India – M (55L in store)
WAYNE / Raisa Pumps [for SLINK feet] (colour and strap change) (55L on Marketplace)
.ET. Magic Ride Necklace Gold (old gacha)
ieQED, wright.shades.wood
Zibska, Keane ~ Earrings (part of s set; colour and size change)
[The Forge] Boho Bracelet, (Gold) (gacha)
-Glam Affair – Yolandi Africa – 02 A (gacha)
-dDx- Ohna (Natural Ginger) hair
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.4 with Lara hands
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XXS – High
poses: Marukin new location opening gift

You can never tell

spank The Chesterfield coat from ::K:: is divine. You may have seen plain cashmere versions at The Men’s Dept. If you visit C’est La Vie, you will find a capsule collection of clothes in male and female sizes by Kit Ragu. I had a tough time choosing just one version of the coat. There’s a gorgeous green and yellow plaid and a check composed of beautiful shades of red-brown. There’s also a more restrained grey version if you are feeling sober. Portia paid a visit to the church at Neva Sky Villi to see a show of lovely Snow White photos by Emma Pearl. Then she plopped herself down on this bed by aisling and began to fantasize about being spanked by one of the seven dwarves. Doc, if I’m not mistaken.

allaround It’s around. All around. It’s around here, somewhere….

Credits
::K::, Chesterfield Coat Check-Navy Female-XS
/Wasabi Pills/ Rene Mesh Hair – Dark flame (ty MissAllSunday Lemon!)
tram -Bowler hat- (Resizer + Stretch script)
[PM]Pixel Mode – Tabi Boots : XS1:Teal
LaGyo,_Mother’s pearls necklace
.Tokame. Leaf White Shirt Collar (gacha)
[W&B] Ayla Leather Skirt AUBERGINE (this be old)
.[LeLutka]-Rockin’ Pants-Black (this be older)
-Glam Affair – Gemma – Europa 01 G (at The Arcade)
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
*CentoPallini* MoonLight Ring
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual – Small
Bliensen + MaiTai nails (I can’t recall when/where/why I got these)
marukin pose
location: Neva Sky Villi, with a Cheeky Pea couch and a Second Spaces wine rack

Casual we’en

casual Hallowe’en is so dressy! Everyone’s wearing a black gown and a big headdress. Portia needed to relax into the season with some loose tweed pants, a crop top and a cashmere beanie from Tutti Frutti. Bela Tolsen is tempting us with a dazzling array of hats and scarves in gacha form. That’s right. You have no control over what you get…and you love it.

Credits to creators
*TuttiFrutti* Giovanna Mesh Bonnet – Stripes (purple) (NEW gacha of hats and scarves; ty Bela Tolsen!)
!(:::HighRize 2.0:::)! Fang Bangers Crop (Blue)M (Oddly, this is not available in store or on Marketplace. I got it at Fiftyfive Friday a while ago. Maybe you did too.)
celoe, lolong.trousers.charade.S]
[F]oil- Wing Chains Hoop Earring Gold-
^^Swallow^^ Bad Ring Gold & Pink
Amacci Hair, Celine ~ Natural Copper
Blah. (My Emotional Poop Necklace) Sad/Long (old gacha)
[PF] Alena – Fresh – Easter Hunt Gift (not available)
[PF] Glossy Pout Lipstick – Choco (*BONUS in the fatpack)
[UMEBOSHI] Lunar 2 eyes -Ink-
marukin pose from current Collabor88

Sauve qui peut

hieratic2

Is it possible to be hypnotized into procrastination?

Credits to creators
h.m.a.e.m. – Fedora (headpiece) (very limited edition at The Couturiers Docks; ty Riri Nini!)
h.m.a.e.m. – bastet bracelet (part of a set)
h.m.a.e.m. – Thais earrings and necklace
[Angels and Demons] Euridice gown pink (ty Aliza Karu!)
“TSG” Stella in Siren/Lilac/Bust (not available)
:[Plastik]:-Haunt-Sickness eyes (these are often included in 50L and Lazy Sunday skins, so if you like em check your inventory)
marukin, [nadja] how I live altogether (Designers United)

Space maiden

spacer2xlc I love the new silk-and-net Eri dress from Nevery Lorakeet for LpD. It’s available in white, shown here, in black, and in pink with a floral pattern. I also love Shaleene Kenin’s affordable accessories for Pure Poison. The Riu cuffs are particularly appealing because they look like mini metal shields rather than leather restraints. They wouldn’t stand up to battle, of course, so their function is pure fantasy.

nnvkk In space, no one can eat ice cream. (I trust that all concerned are happy I decided this couldn’t be my only pic.)

Credits to creators
*LpD* – *Eri* Dress White (Mesh – Size XXS) (NEW; ty Nevery!)
MetaTheodora, Extreme Cyber HeadSet (can be work without visor) (ty Sian!)
Pure Poison – Omega Warrior Necklace
Pure Poison – Riu Spiked Leather Bracelets (at SL Fashion Week, I think)
:[Plastik]:- Astrali Skin[Toned-Down]:// Asaia (former 50L Friday item)
LoQ Hair” Shaved Hairbase – Medium Red
ring pic two: Fanatik, Geode ring (old hunt gift)
pose one: Label motion, Draya pack at TDR Fusion till Thursday)
pose two: Marukin, marrons pack
ice cream: Lark, Sienia’s Light Galaxy (at Atelier Kreslo’s ice cream fair, closing soon)

She comes in colours

Snapshot_801With all the events opening lately, you could be forgiven for neglecting to head out to Second Pride, where I picked up Epic’s animated rainbow wings for free. You may have also missed the launch of Sopha Portal’s new skin line for My UglyDorothy. Miu is the debut face. Ms. Portal is offering her signature cute shape and distinctive makeups, but now you have a choice of eight tones, each of which comes with mesh feet (but not SLink feet). The new system is a bit confusing, but I think I got the hang of it. You buy the base skin, which comes with a blank white face, and then you add the makeups for the face. The makeups can be added on one tat layer or they can be added in blush, eyes and mouth tats. This makes it possible to mix and match makeup elements if you have a fatpack for any given tone. Among the new tones, I like the pale tone number 2, seen here, and the lightest of the dark tones, number 6, seen below.

Snapshot_788 If you’re a member of the WTG group, you can now pick up the June gift of earrings and a matching ribbon necklace in a cute rainbows ‘n’ rain theme. If you want to see more of Anorak’s kookie colourful Yome Shoujo tunic, check out the Pleisure Flickr. Keep in mind, however, that it’s only available in less funtastic fabrics.

Credits to creators
Miu wears
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Miu Shape(Modifable) (NEW)
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Tone2 skin and *MY UGLYDOROTHY -Miu_PopPop1(Red)_tone2(teeth) (NEW)
/Wasabi Pills/ Lory Mesh Hair – (BOOBS) – Gingerbread – RARE (Arcade gacha; ty MissAllSunday Lemon)
*Epic* Fairy Sparkle Dream Wings {Rainbow} [For.Photos] (at the Second Pride event)
Color.Me.H.O.F [ButtonDownShirt[Purple]_M
– Glam Affair – Stella Eyes n4

Anorak wears
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Tone6 skin and *MY UGLYDOROTHY -Miu_Lovely4(Dark Brown)_tone6 (NEW; ty Sopha Portal!)
+:+WTG+:+ **Fun! Rainy day!** ear-pierce [comes with necklace] (VIP gift, fee to join)
xxYOME SHOUJOxx, *TacOchan* [MESH-XS] -mini DRESS (old gg, not available in this texture)
*COCO*_BowShirt(White)
[yulicie] Mochi – Black hair
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown

poses: marukin

Although these photos have been GIMPed, I did not retouch the skins. These photos were shot without shadows on the CalWL Windlight setting. Everyone’s settings differ, so please be sure to demo skins!