Did I just play with an asshole?

havingflownout My last post told the story of my afternoon as a demo bottom for a rope class. I ended the post on a high note, knowing that I would have to write another post to talk about the lousy aftermath. As soon as we’d finished class, I told my top how much I’d enjoyed it and how impressed I was that he was a careful teacher. He said nothing positive in return. He said nothing during aftercare. He said nothing when we parted, not even thank you. I was in a very good mood, and I told myself that I wasn’t going to let his being an ungenerous idiot ruin my experience. How did I know he was an ungenerous idiot? I knew because he had said something immediately after class, something I asked him to repeat because I couldn’t believe how rude it was. “You did everything right,” he said, “but what you did is really hard to fuck up.” While we were stretched out together for aftercare he stated “All a bottom has to do is be vulnerable.” I was aghast. He might as well have said that all a woman has to do is close her eyes and think of England. I pushed back calmly, saying that this sounded like typical top rhetoric about (inevitably male) riggers having “hard skills” and (inevitably female) rope bunnies having “soft skills.” He did not recant. Nor did he elaborate. Tops are assholes, I thought to myself as I went home. Why did I think he would be different?
garejacksboroallume I didn’t have to suffer drop the next day to find myself in a funk. When he checked in by text to ask me how I was doing, I replied: “Confused why you followed our class by insisting that bottoms do nothing other than be vulnerable. Nonplussed is the word.” He replied that he was sorry if he caused offense, but he’d stated that in response to a concern I’d shared about our experience in a private class at Shibaricon, which was the first time we tied. I thought I’d fucked up the last move in the sequence we did. He texted that when he said bottoms only have to be vulnerable he was backing up his supposedly reassuring explanation that it’s always the top’s fault if anything goes wrong. This response did not inspire me to communicate further. I went to bed feeling numb, with nothing to say, partly because my experience has been that men don’t want to talk things out. Not with women who don’t matter. How could I matter? I’m just a bottom. Continue reading


Girl meets mask

It turns out that I am afraid of masks. As much as I struggle to scrounge up a new skin for every post, I am loath to cover Portia’s face. It feels profoundly dehumanizing. Since I’m still on my D/S tear, however, I figured I could try working MetaTheodora’s Foundling mask into a humiliation scenario. What would it be like to wake up alone in a damp, cavernous space, locked into a heavy mask? Trying at some moments to make out the words on the mask, fingers tracing the lines. Trying at others to find a door without being hobbled by your heels, without tripping over trash or tumbling into boxes. Thinking the text must be in code and then realizing it’s Latin. Something you forgot about after highschool. The mask, which bears a line from a poem by Lucretius, is available now at the Fantasy Gacha Carnival. Oddly, although I found a translation of the line the other day on a handy website, I cannot find one now. No res is being revealed in this post.
Portia’s Loordes of London corset and leg tattoo are prizes in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2. The divine puppeteer tat inspired me to visit Dr. Kit’s Bondage Puppet Theater, where Portia may still be in a box when I’m not looking.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, Foundling Mask – LUCRETIUS (Common) (at Fantasy Gacha Carnival; ty Sian!)
Loordes of London-Moulin Rouge Corset-#5-M and undies (1L or 5L? in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2)
Love Zombie – Marionette Tattoo (1L or 5L? in the Sexy and I Know it Hunt 2)
Essences – Luaflor *lait* blonde (old TDRF skin I think)
BowChicka – Purismo 2 – *B* – Brushed Gold for Slink High Feet (same pack has medium feet version; these are colour change)
*{Junbug}* Freyja’s Collar – Night -(not too old gacha)
Pure Poison – Locked Hand Cuff (VIP group gift; fee to join)
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XS – High

On the bunny trail

Occasionally I apologize for not getting into the swing of things. Sometimes I can’t conjure up an elf for Christmas or a Canadian on Victoria Day, but I always feel the fluffy or the sexy at easter time. Sunday’s deadline is looming, however, and I am still searching in vain for painted eggs. Today’s metal queen may be all the bunny I have to offer this year. Not that she’s dingy. I love the high shine of her MetaTheodora Candida mask, new at The Gallery Gift Shop, and the glint of her Rab8 headphones from Remarkable Oblivion. Unless a creator sends out a materials-enabled easter-basket av or a fitmesh bra and panties in chocolate sauce and cherries, this fine lady will be my only harbinger of spring. She orders you to get pagan this weekend.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, CANDIDA Mask (NEW at The Gallery Gift Shop; ty Sian!)
RO – Super Bass Rab8 Headphones – Vanilla (at Fameshed)
MetaTheodora – Ambition – Queen’s Dress (RARE) – XS-S (gacha at Secret Affair)
.aisling. LadyOfHighgarden Bracers Silver (gacha at Secret Affair; also try yard sales for choice of metals and parts—bracers, shoulders or hands in silver, gold or black)
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual –
.Birdy. May Skin ~Peaches~ (Blond)

New ambition

Astrali Aikea Rieko of The Plastik has just released her Astrali skin in a range so comprehensive that you can now break up with your lover and be sure to forget them while you frolic among the hundred tones. That’s right: one.hundred. (/me hears the sound of marriages ending) The tones are divided into cool, warm and neutral palettes. You can be any colour of the rainbow. And that rainbow includes plenty of luscious dark skins with overtones of dark green or black cherry. Each skin pack includes several eyeshadows and a browless tat, as well as Ms. Rieko’s signature lip treatments and freckles. All appliers are sold in a separate pack.

Rare Ambition Stop talking about ruling that off-world colony and get to it! Sian Pearl’s Ambition gown for MetaTheodora will make your gacha dreams come true when the Secret Affair event opens on April 6th. If you want to attract attention, rather than command it at gun point, the fabulous April pack from The Muse Poses offers you an array of elegant choices.
Hedy You still have time to visit the Fiera event before it closes on the 31st. Here, Hedda models the sparkling new Hedy hat by Zib Scaggs for Zibska. Hedy, which is colour, size and shine change, comes with a matching necklace. Hedda opted not to wear it because it was cutting into the chocolate eclairs she stores behind her collar. You can buy the hat and necklace duo alone or, for the same price, as part of the Leticia outfit, which is also new at Fiera.

:[Plastik]:- Astrali Skin[Basic]:// Eridanus with Astrali Eyeshadow:// Cobalt (NEW, on the second floor; ty Aikea!)
Zibska, Hedy ~ Hat (NEW at Fiera event by Saviad till the 31st; ty Zib!)
MetaTheodora – Ambition – black/white (RARE) – XS-S (NEW gacha at The Secret Affair opening April 6; ty Sian!)
booN, cornrows hairbase blueblack
booN, SOT812 hair blueblack
DRD, chrono fangs
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual –
ieQED, hand.spike.titanium shoes [don’t wanna wear nothing else]
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XXS – High
: Amorous : Die Schlacht (Earring
:Hebenon Vial: Pitch Piercings [Ink, V.1]
Clemmm – Dark Chic Circus Lashes (part of gift at Skin Fair)
[UMEBOSHI] Lunar 2 eyes -Ink-
poses 1 and 3: The Muse Poses, April (NEW; ty Audrey!)
pose 2: elephante poses, under your spell pack (Twisted Hunt prize)

See the future

futurewave New becomes now on February 15th when the teleports open for the first edition of FutureWave, brought to you by Cursed Events. Today I’m previewing MetaTheodora’s brand new Swing3003 dress, which harks back to the structured shapes of 1964 Courreges without the forbiddingly harsh geometry and overpowering primary colours. Creator Sian Pearl is not sending you into space wearing an impractical square frock fashioned out of aluminum foil and white plastic. Instead she’s offering a bell-shaped tunic in a decorous and durable wool plaid that will keep you warm on Pluto and hide the space-dirt you’re sure to attract in Saturn’s rings.
3003 Outer space is the place where curves go to be hugged.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, Swing3003 Dress – Plaid Mauve – XS-M (NEW at FutureWave, beginning February 15)
.Birdy. Red skin ~Porcelaine~ (Limited edition Enchanted) Bare (at Enchantment)
(epoque hair) Pristine – Double-Dip
[Belgravia] – Electra Boots – S – Midnight
Kayliwulff, FetishDoll Lacetex Catsuit Apricot (freebie)
set/pose two: Bent, Inspire (old gift)
pose one: Bent, Creative Portraits pack (One Voice item)

Exterminate what?

compyxx “The people who had not yet reached puberty at the time of the bomb were incapable of conceiving of a life with a future.” Post-WWII British hipsters responded to their parents’ willing hypocrisies by adopting the pastimes and poses of the jazz subculture. “It was a mask whose quality was particularly appropriate, being neither the image of our inward terror nor the image of the outward lie but, being, rather, the image of the sour, dynamic discomfort it was to contain such hypersensitive solitude….

comp …The ‘raw’ pastel shades, the discordant glitter, the metallic breasts, the military shoulders, the screeching tenor saxophones, were the very aesthetic of the severed nerve, for our nerves were severed, severed from certainty, severed from social and family warmth, and above all severed from future…. The liars, the willing pretenders who put the bomb next to sex in the locked closet, could not hear jazz.” —Jeff Nuttall, Bomb Culture

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, Weapons of Mass Distraction (resize script) (NEW at Suicide Dollz; ty Sian!)
MoDANNA, [Vertigo Collection] Denim Dark Blue M (I think the creator is building a new mainstore)
Mimikri – Lace Bustier / Allure black
ANE, Arena Shoes – High Platform Rigged Mesh SILVER
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) S – Mid
.Birdy. Imogen Skin ~Peaches~ Peaches & Cream (Bare) (gacha in store)
no. 7, Kissing Lipstick {C} (NEW at The Gallery Gift Shop’s new loaction; ty Shortie!)
Rotten Toe, Goth brows 1
Al vulo! * Eye-Liner Black
.Birdy. {Liner} 9 (VIP gift)
[LeLutka]-BRIGITTE hair – Lion
[LeLutka]-BOUFFANT tiara only
erratic / cuff / silver
JD – Tri Bands – Black
ANE, Sexy Necklace
:::Sn@tch, Nail Candy (Red/White Cross):::
POST, TARDIS (was a gift)
poses, tea.s (I <3 tea’s poses)

He makes me wait

waiting5ds This one is inspired by a dom’s desire to send me out into the workaday world with something kinky hidden under my clothes. Radioactivity optional.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, RadPanties (NEW at Suicide Dollz; ty Sian Pearl!) [You know you want to take a closer look. It’s worth your while to do so.]
-Glam Affair – Elvi – America – 03 F (at Collabor88)
no. 7, Kissing Lipstick {C} (NEW at The Gallery Gift Shop’s new location; ty Shortcake Sugarplum!)
ISON – detzel leather shirt -S- (tangy)
LaGyo,_Misaku bangle (at Collabor88)
Magika, [Hair M] Stumble
Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands – Casual – Small
Slink, Female Feet (AvEnhance) XXS – Mid
Izzie’s – Cat Tights black
Ingenue :: Delia Heels (Slink Feet Add-On) :: Noir
Estetica, tabouret
Kuro, Caged Intentions

Rising star


The new Star of Venus ballgown by Sion Pearl for MetaTheodora would do any diva proud. The rigged mesh gown is one piece: an articulated metal corset with glowing hoops over a floor-length green skirt. The resizable nipple covers and resizable helmet and the gauntlets are all separate pieces, which your av could pair with a latex catsuit for work or with jeans for girls night out.
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Try as I might, I could not get a full-length shot of Portia when I went on location to Hangars Liquides. Here she is relaxing in her trailer between takes.

Credits to creators
MetaTheodora, Star of Venus Ballgown (NEW, on Marketplace; ty Sian!)
MIASNOW Skin – WALKER Betty (insanely beautiful painted skin, comes with five lipsticks and eyebrow tat, and with a shape that can only be described as harrowingly hollow-cheeked) (NOW at Pumpkin Town event at Potpourri Markets until the end of October)
MIASNOW Eyes – PALE (at Marquis Market)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts
booN KGI848 hair purple
booN gathered raised hairbase purple
E-Clipse, O-X Necklace- Rare (AngelBlue) (at OriMeCre gacha; more info: http://www.lesfolies.org/)
:Hebenon Vial: Pitch Piercings [Ink, V.1]
Apple Spice, Gown pack
floorplan, teardrop trailer
location, photo 1: Hangars Liquides
GIMPed but not PIMPed

Space maiden

spacer2xlc I love the new silk-and-net Eri dress from Nevery Lorakeet for LpD. It’s available in white, shown here, in black, and in pink with a floral pattern. I also love Shaleene Kenin’s affordable accessories for Pure Poison. The Riu cuffs are particularly appealing because they look like mini metal shields rather than leather restraints. They wouldn’t stand up to battle, of course, so their function is pure fantasy.

nnvkk In space, no one can eat ice cream. (I trust that all concerned are happy I decided this couldn’t be my only pic.)

Credits to creators
*LpD* – *Eri* Dress White (Mesh – Size XXS) (NEW; ty Nevery!)
MetaTheodora, Extreme Cyber HeadSet (can be work without visor) (ty Sian!)
Pure Poison – Omega Warrior Necklace
Pure Poison – Riu Spiked Leather Bracelets (at SL Fashion Week, I think)
:[Plastik]:- Astrali Skin[Toned-Down]:// Asaia (former 50L Friday item)
LoQ Hair” Shaved Hairbase – Medium Red
ring pic two: Fanatik, Geode ring (old hunt gift)
pose one: Label motion, Draya pack at TDR Fusion till Thursday)
pose two: Marukin, marrons pack
ice cream: Lark, Sienia’s Light Galaxy (at Atelier Kreslo’s ice cream fair, closing soon)