The new old chastity


It was a dark and stormy night when Portia Capelo contacted her friend Sian Pearl, who makes cool, wicked stuffs, and said “So, like, I know this person who told me that her sister was talking to a guy whose girlfriend was reading a book written by a woman who interviewed a sub who remembered (fondly) her grandmother’s tales of tight-lacing and erm chastity belts….” At first Sian hesitated to take on my special commission. Wasn’t a chastity belt an instrument of repression and torture? Not, Portia figured, if it’s my idea. Not if it’s temporary. Not if the person who’s holding the key knows when to spring the locks. (Not if one secretly believes that it would be no worse than wearing underwear when it’s 105 degrees.) After doing some research, Sian asked if she should build in a dildo and a butt plug. By this time Portia was no longer pretending to be merely curious. She’d thought about this quite a bit and, truth be told, it seemed to her that the chastity belt should be a nice escape from all the penetrating one has to put up with. Sian was not down with the dildo either, but she designed the belt so that it looks like pluggy things could be added. She actually came up with something much more subtly stimulating: that lovely furrow in the front, which I assume is meant to keep the labia minora separate and the clitoris sequestered. Sian decided that she wouldn’t produce the chastity belt for her MetaTheodora line, which is a shame. It’s hard to believe SL doesn’t host a thousand fashion slaves longing for some of this medieval bling. UPDATE: This was reverse psychology. Sian changed her mind.


That’s right. Two different looks. Oh sure, like you know what to wear with yours. (You do?! Text me.)

Look professional
MetaTheodora, PORTIA III Chastity Belt (NOW AVAILABLE)
cheeky, Wet Tanky! (old HTH 4 hunt gift)
[MystiCanvass] Jamie Skin D Cup-Copper (old event skin)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts (spine)
Amacci Hair, Celine ~ Natural Copper
:FANATIK: My bad girl ring Copper
[R3volt] – Jade Cuffs [V3]
bellballs/PIDIDDLE – Fringed Cuff – Nature
Glitterati, Boobtacular

Look casual
MetaTheodora, PORTIA II Chastity Belt (NOW AVAILABLE)
-Suicidal Unborn!- Dirty Top Purple XS
::Exile:: Little Things:Blackgold
[theSkinnery] Byuri-Foxy Lady(toffee) DB CL3 (old event special version)
(r)M ~ Copper Rings (dollarbie on Marketplace)
*BOOM* Bold wrist cuff (v1) Titanium
Glitterati, Pin up Girl

GIMPed and a little PIMPed


Go big (spokesmodel)

lashesfrmd People often ask me how I manage to keep up with my research and writing while maintaining an unhealthy level of depression. The secret is letting yourself go. This is easy if your depression takes the form of paralysis. When, after half a day of sloth, you realize that you are once again shitting your life’s work away, going out to work without washing your hair feels like the right thing to do. If you are trying to be a productive member of society while neglecting all its duties and pleasures, you stand to benefit from the tricks I’ll share with you today.
1. Forget the shower
Take whore baths (all the cracks). It was good enough for your great grandmother. Not that she was a whore. She just didn’t have any running water. I use two cloths, one for the dirty parts and one for the delicate parts. I’ll let you decide for yourself what is which. Conserving energy by removing lights from your bathroom makes everything—including the all-white room itself—look much less dirty than you imagined.
2. Put the shower to better use
If you comb your long shedding hair into the sink, you have to clean up every last strand every day. Or they will tangle up in the drain. Eco-freindly unclogging costs you an hour’s worth of writing or moping time: 15 minutes fishing the decomposing hair out of the drain, 45 minutes gagging between fishing attempts. I discovered I could avoid all this by combing my locks into the tub that I wasn’t using for bathing.
3. Reluctantly use the shower properly
Studies show that Pssst! can only keep your hair smelling like an old lady for so long. Eventually it will smell like a dead old lady, and you will have to allow water to beat down on your bean. (Be sure to fish the hair out of the shower before you hop in. Feel satisfied that you’ve only had to round up the strays once this week.) I dispute the claim that having sex is the best motivator for more frequent and thorough bathing. It’s way too easy to convince yourself that staying sticky and wet, in more than one place, is some kind of tribute to your lover.
4. Stock up on basics
Postpone laundry for a month or more by buying dozens of panties. You can’t afford to pay twenty bucks a piece, so go to the big department store and find that one table with five pair for $19.99. Sure, they are going to be decorated with tiny turtles and inappropriately child-sized bows, but they will also be cotton, which is far healthier for the vajayjay (especially if you want to walk around sticky and wet after sex…). EMTs do not actually check your panties, so it’s safe to wear each pair for two days. Bonus: any morning you wake up late or frantic, you get to forget how many days that pair on the floor has already served. If you find a bra you like, buy three in black, saving the time you would waste trying to find another bra you like. If you wear all three identical bras before any single one of them is dirty, you will lose track of which one you’ve worn too many times and the pressure to wash them is off.
5. Multitask in the shower
If you have to shower, make it worthwhile by simultaneously washing out a couple of pairs of undies or a bra. Never wash more than one bra in one session: chances are you’ve forgotten what you did with the second one, but if you look several times you should be able to find the third one in one of the piles of all-black clothes on the chairs in your bedroom.

Credits to creators
MichaMi: Hedda Leather Dress in Wine_M
[ #7 ] D I S C O V E R Y – zero miles Lashes (at Finesmith’s Summer Boutique; ty Shortie!)
Miasnow, Sweety Pale
cStar Limited – Spectrum Lines Eyeliner (old gift)
>TRUTH< Demi – chocberry
bellballs/PIDIDDLE – Fringed Cuff – Tropical (Golden Finish)
MONS / Shocking eyes – sky
Glitterati, Pin up Girl pack (on sale till store close at end of June)
I always have time to GIMP.

Playtime for Portia


I officially inform my readers that Portia’s Swallow skin and WTG collar, which are both fabulous, are available at Limited Bazaar for another week. With this formal blog business concluded, I consider myself free to fulfill one of my fantasies: writing about my experience of sexual submission. (If that’s the first line of 50 Shades of Gray, it’s not a citation. I’ve invested too much time in reading unrespectable erotica to go legit in an airport bookstore.) This is newbie stuff for me, and still virtual in the sense that the man I play with lives far far away. I enjoy our complicity as we concoct a scenario. I believe that he likes me ungagged and uncompromising as much as he likes me gagged and pliable. (Of course, this relationship will fall apart and I will hate the [future] son-of-a-bitch, but probably not before server-side baking locks me out of SL. So you get to read the happy part of the story. Only my therapist will have to deal with the sad.) Nothing that I’ve read about BDSM prepared me for the emotional dimension of my recent experiences. I’ve discovered that the eroticization of feelings like humiliation and the need to please makes those feelings pleasurable. This reminds me of Freud’s concept of humour as a means of overcoming a threat to the ego, except in submission one experiences the threat rather than trying to evade it with a joke. Of course, both of these strategies involve play, which, for me, right now, is the foundation of the D/S relationship.
clpcolll The other astonishing thing about the emotions I’m describing is the simple fact that I’m having them. I have never felt humiliated by someone and never felt a bewildered hurt at being misused. This despite the fact that I’ve had lovers who did humiliate me and did mistreat me in garden-variety ways. In those situations I was aware of feeling anger and despair, reactive emotions rather than the emotions that preceded the reactions. Wanting to please someone has never been part of my emotional makeup. (Oh so symmetrically, I have never consciously wanted to be pleased by someone. My pleasure has always felt like my responsibility.) In the situation of playing sub to my dom, I feel an overwhelming need to please him, which, oddly enough, I enjoy. As much as submission forces, or allows, me to exist in a simpler and more malleable form of myself, it also permits, and perhaps requires, me to feel fierce. I’ve discovered that allowing myself to be diminished ritually has the effect of expanding me. (Not every time, of course, and not during every moment of a play session. If my blog entry makes you feel like trying this at home, consider that a penis gag is just uncomfortable if there’s no compelling reason to keep it on.)

Credits to creators
^^Swallow^^ Anja Limited Bazar Ivory (A)
Miss Shippe’s Studio, gold breasts like Midas bukake (gacha)
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
Dura, Girl 27(Black)resize
Countdown. Karolina Gold Corset S
+:+WTG+:+ **Black Queen** collar (at Limited Bazaar)
Fleshtone :: Vanity Studded Cuffs
HOC Industries – Thigh Boots (Extra Small)
PIDIDDLE – Sharp Nails – Silver Glitz (old gift)
ooo Studio and Gos, Pose Pouf
GIMPed but not PIMPed

Don’t powder puff (NSFW)


I reconnected with an old virtual flame, someone I thought I’d never speak to again, and we’ve been tearing through my erotic fantasies. (Which these pictures don’t even come close to capturing.) He’s afk this week, just when I’ve gone all chastity-belt-curious. I figured Portia could feel things out for me, but I made a disastrous purchase from Repressed Designs of an inexplicably enormous belt that can’t be reduced, even though it’s labeled modifiable. Determined to scratch my itch until it turned bright red, I kitted Portia out with some of MetaTheodora’s cyber bits, which make nice substitutes for the belt and for clamps. Although they are not made for Lolas, the nips bits fit the falsies just fine if you tweak them. (The bits, not the tits.)
strongstandx Portia shows off her new riding crop in a dollarbie pose from Rack. If you like erotic imagery but aren’t one of creator Kirsty O’Herlihy’s Flickr fans, mistress is never going to spank you again.

Credits to creators
…::: Scrub :::… Tie me up, tie me down black M [corset and boots are one piece] [and extraordinarily sexy] (at the Whore Couture Fair 2) [also in white and red] [I kinda wanted the red] [but black is more tactical]
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts (spine)
PIDIDDLE – Amorous Choker (special item at Adore & Abhor)
MetaTheodora, CyberNips
MetaTheodora, CyberSex – White
.Olive. the Refreshed Bear Trap Bracelet – GunMetal
Basic LockGuard V2 Cuff (freebie…not sure which sex machine I got it from)
Essences – Thursday *light rose* black (recent TDR Fusion)
Irezumi-ya, tattoo251 thigh
h.m.a.e.m. – bridles for hair – black
photo one: LeLutka, Lively blue rinse fade
photo two: LeLutka, VENT hair Jessica (old Xmas gift)
:::Sn@tch Nail Candy (Black/Red Cross):::
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
pose 1: Diesel Works, Debutante Chaise Black
pose 2: Rack Poses, Riding Crop Dollarbie
set: William Weaver, Build 004 (free on Marketplace)
GIMPed the fist photo for ages but never managed to make my av a decent pudendum. Didn’t work much on the second photo because I knew I couldn’t improve that butt.

Hey lady!

merm4xxl The Aquarius Zodiac month ends on the 13th, so you should surf over there soon if you want a nifty mermaid bra by Brutus Martinek of Pididdle. JesyLilo’s loose-fit jeans feature portholes on the outside of each leg. Why I do not know. Perhaps to show off a tattooed tangle of kelp.

duveteuxl Meanwhile, back on shore, Sopha Portal has released a new skin called Vivian. As with her other recent skins, Vivian is available in a pack with eight soft and sweet makeups. Six of these feature orange-red lips, and two, including the one I’m showing here, run to pink. I tend to think I don’t like anything named after a princess or a lapdog, but Aranel Ah’s Tiffany colour makes BOOM’s beautifully sculpted, nubbly textured Duveteux Rayonnant jacket absolutely irresistible. As far as I’m concerned, Ms. Ah has the all clear for Savannah and Felicity.

Credits to creators
Look one
PIDIDDLE – Sea Maiden Bra – Sea Princess (NEW at Zodiac; ty Brutus Martinek!)
::Exile:: A Winter’s Tale:Beach
*JeSyLiLO*:::Knotted Jeans:::*Dirty XS (NEW; ty Lilo Glom!)
Adam n Eve Clothes, Ana Lace Panty Popcorn
Graves, Cuffs from G329
-Belleza- Wynter skin (old 50L Friday)
MONS / Shocking eyes – blue
The Muse Poses, Venus (at Fashion Limited; ty Audrey Cresci!)

Look two
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Vivian05(Burly) [available in three tones] (NEW; ty Sopha Portal!)
*MY UGLYDOROTHY -Cleaves tattoo1(Burly) (tat cleavage sold separately)
*BOOM* Duveteux Rayonnant Jacket (Tiffany) (mesh) (NEW; ty Aranel Ah!)
Maitreya Flare Jeans (for heels) * M #6
welldone.atelier/ Gold Deer rings (at fi*friday, pack includes gold and silver)
[e] Abbey – Red 05 (on sale)
Clemmm – Window Ocean eyes
focus poses, winter set (at Limited Bazaar)

GIMP your own, these are mine. (I shot these to look more yellow than they appear in a standard AnaLu studio 5 light. So please do try demos!)



Fully expecting to be chosen to perpetuate the human species in a large, but selective, lunar colony, Portia dresses for her post-doomsday destiny.

Credits to creators
*Epic Boobies* Archangel Suit White [only looks silver in the pic] (comes with neck corset in three sizes and Lolas Tango applier; can be worn regular style)
Lolas ::: Tango ::: Mesh Breasts (spine)
[LeLutka]-VERSAGE hair – BlueRinseFade
+Nuuna+ Winter 2012 Gift Skin with +Nuuna+ Winter 2012 makeup (open gift comes with Tango applier; the lips are blue, btw)
*Epic* Mesh Neo Mega Stompers {Glacier}{S} (off-white, only look silver in the pic]
Pididdle, Silver nails (old VIP gg)
location: new u.f.o store
GIMPed (with a bit of end-o-the-world carelessness)

This sh*t just got real

Here’s a fantasy. This is what I would wear if I owned a chic boutique in Paris and life was so perfect that cats and birds could hang out together without getting into an argument about Léos Carax’s latest film. In this fantasy, my outfit consists of a mesh hippie blouse from Shine by ZD and a wearable demo dress from Solita. There’s also fur from Bliss Couture, which is running a sale on fur and ruffles until December 16th. The cuffs Portia wears here come with a matching poncho.

Here’s a reality. I’ve just gone through the toughest four months of my life and things may get worse before they get better. I don’t actually cry on my knees under a table. I prefer to stand, bend over and hang upside down till the rush of blood to my head distracts me from the despair. (If I called it yoga you’d try it yourself instead of thinking I’m weird. Which I am.) When I look at the SL feeds, I occasionally come across a post from someone who has been suffering from depression, may have attempted suicide, and may feel terribly alone. One of the wonderful things about SL is the anonymity that allows us to acknowledge pain without the risks that come with real-life declarations. I keep this blog a secret from all but my closest friend, so it remains a place where I can be some of the things I am not allowed to be in my daily life. I can, for example, play with a pair of giant bübs. I can also be honest about emotional pain. I can’t claim to have caught every post SLers have written about depression and despair, but I want those who have written such posts to know that I’m grateful for your honesty. I wish you all the strength and support you need to get you through the dark periods of your lives.

Credits to creators
shine by [ZD], MESH BATWING BLOUSE Hippiestyle plum – M (ty Cecilia Blanchere!)
[solita] Fin de Semana Dress M
[UMEBOSHI] Pabu tights -Peach- (a pack available at TGGS for a couple more days; ty Keiba!)
! Bliss Fur ! Lecker Fur Sleeves (50% off)
Schadenfreude, Amargosa Boots (Nov. Collabor88)
Yummy, Boho Rings – Maroon (Nov. Collabor88)
Glam Affair -Renee- Sinless 02 D (at the Arcade Gacha event)
PIDIDDLE – My Special Treasures – Some Teeth I Found (at the Arcade Gacha event; ty Brutus Martinek!)
The first pose is by dfo! from the Gala fundraiser pack and the location is Cupcake. The second pose is part of the Falln furniture and the location is Contraption.

Post-Halloween funk

Four days into November, I am still not reconciled to the fact that Portia and Anorak can no longer prance around in orange and black. I could barely remember how to put a normal outfit together until I decided that “cheap” and “grey” could be my themes. In this look, Portia combines a Glow corset and Auxiliary jeans—currently available at The Dressing Room and TDR Blue, respectively—with a fi*friday sweater by Attic. You will need to shell out a bit more for the cool bottle-bottom glasses by K_GS at The Gallery Gift Shop. And the gorgeous hair from Wasabi Pills is regular price at Fameshed. The best news is that Portia’s sneakers are a free gift from Balkanik 2.0, and there are several other pairs in the pack. They are resizable to fit women and menfolk.

I want to highlight the jewellery Portia wears in this post. It’s a witty set of lightbulb earrings and necklace available from Amorous at the Tomorrow Today fundraiser for Matchbook Monday, whose story you can read on the intertubes. The vendor only shows hot pink and turquoise, but there are dozens of options in the colour-change menu. Portia also wears Madeleine, the pretty cheapie shirt from, and a pair of LB pants from NuDoLu, which feature a lacey-looking fabric and grey woolies below the cuffs. (You can see more of her outfit on the Pleisure Flickr.) I stalked these trousers hard, and I hit the 40L rabbit-hat gacha while I waited. In case you’re wondering, I won the trousers on a ?. The other letters I saw were the usual U, Y and X. I think there was also a 666, the number of the beast that lurks in these frustrating LBs.

Credits to creators
Look one
amorous, :love always: lit set with earrings (at Tomorrow Today, fundraiser for Matchbook Monday)
/Wasabi Pills/ Amelie Mesh Hair – Cinnamon (NEW at Fameshed; ty Miss Lemon!)
^^Swallow^^ Group Gift- Happy Halloween (free VIP gg)
K_gs, BottleBottom glasses (at TGGS)
Attic, Monochrome Blocks Cardigan (S) (at fi*friday)
[ glow ] Studio Vintage Corset purple (S) (new at TDR)
Auxiliary – Skinny Jeans – XXS – Ombre Purple (last week for these at TDR Blue)
PIDIDDLE – Sharp Nails – Silver Glitz – HS 20 (new gg; fee to join)
Balkanik 2.0, Vintage_HIPSTER [MEDIUM] (free VIP gg)

Look two
amorous, :love always: lit set with necklace (at Tomorrow Today, fundraiser for Matchbook Monday)
u.ONE, Madeleine shirt XL
:NuDoLu: Pantalon jean + laine LB color – XS (LB)
:NuDoLu: Bonnet lapin Mr. Lapin (resize) (gacha)
^^Swallow^^ Group Gift- Happy Halloween (VIP gg)
K_gs, BottleBottom glasses (at TGGS)
*Tea Time* Slipper/Socks I<3Japan bird -brown socks
PIDIDDLE – Sharp Nails – Silver Glitz – HS 20 (VIP gg, fee to join)

location: Crystall Dunes sim, private but open through November 5 (methinks)

The Zomneys are coming

The man behind Buffy the Vampire Slayer explains why a vote for Mitt Romney is a vote for a zombie apocalypse. Says Joss Whedon: “Romney is ready to make the deep rollbacks in health care, education, social services, reproductive rights that will guarantee poverty, unemployment, overpopulation, disease, rioting: all crucial elements in creating a nightmare zombie wasteland.”

I stand with Mr. Whedon on this—at least I do until some zombie bites me and I can’t afford a trip to Emergency—and I urge you to vote for Obama on November 6. Before you do that, however, you ought to shamble over to Cinema, which closes on the 31st, and pick up Brutus Martinek’s brilliant Undead Perfection ensemble. You can buy the elements of the outfit separately or as a set that also includes dagger-like nails not shown here.

Credits to creators
PIDIDDLE – Undead Perfection Bodysuit (at Cinema; ty Brutus Martinek!)
PIDIDDLE – Undead Perfection – PlasticSurg Marks (at Cinema; ty Brutus Martinek!)
PIDIDDLE – Undead Perfection Mask (at Cinema; ty Brutus Martinek!)
:[P]:-LionHeart-Skele-Porcelain-Bare/Bone and SkeleBones Tattoo (group gift from random gift giver; see yesterday’s post)
::DT:: ::sTeRRe:: Shape (Copy/Mod)
(Yummy) Whatever Ring (old gacha)
– .HoD. – Compassion Piercing Set Prt. 2 – Razor
pose: Miseria, Creep pack (may not be available)
location: The Attic at Petruchio
Damn that full-bright brain! I had to GIMP and pimp again. Somebody stop me…