In the hanging garden

all mod cons bwHe called to cancel our date on Friday afternoon. His father is seriously ill. He wouldn’t see him till Sunday. He couldn’t think about anything else. I cried on public transportation for 75 minutes. If it had been a crowded rush-hour train all the bodies would have afforded me some privacy. (One very nice man did give me a napkin and encouraged me to open it to get the most out of it.) In texts, I tried to suggest alternatives to the elaborate rope scene my top and I had been planning. I was selfish, but… I don’t know him very well. It’s possible a little light bondage is the perfect thing to relieve his stress. Tops are said to lack control in their lives and enjoy controlling the bottom’s body; for rope tops this extends to the intense focus of the tying. (Bottoms are said to seek relief from obligations to act. [Obligations to act might be called “power” if most bottoms were men.] My career as a professor saddles me with more responsibility and authority than I want. And yet I’ve never been in a scene that freed me from making decisions. The possibility of nerve damage keeps me alert.) (There’s RL lingerie and, yes, some tasteful avatar nudity after the dreaded cut.) Continue reading


I must profess

techtxt I do not want to go back into the classroom tomorrow. If I do, I’m using the lousy winter weather as an excuse to wear black jeans and a t-shirt.

emmaclx Thinking makes ones hair messy. In a very sexy way.

Credits to creators
/Wasabi Pills/ Emma Mesh Hair – (BOOBS) – Rouge (new at The Season’s Story; ty MissAllSunday Lemon!)
-tb- Female Skinny Tie (M) – Plum (at Collabor88)
-tb- Long Sleeve Collared Blouse (S) – Blush (at Collabor88)
LeeZu, Yukatan Pants S (mesh,rigged,material) /beige
Tableau Vivant – LL 1/2 gloves (XXS-S)
Yasum*MESH*Steampunk Headset*STEAM*female*CAMOU (not that old gacha)
Essences – Song Goth 02 *brown* (past TDRF)
-Glam Affair – Mokatana – Moles 2
dl:: Belly Bandaid tattoo
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
::BB:: Arctic Friends Snowshoe Hare Pal(creme) (gacha)
pose one by h.m.a.e.m
Blackboard by Glitterati in Schooled prop
Books from Book’em by BOOM (old pose prop)

Who cares?


I regret not understanding music. I wish the fat lady who smelled like cats, whose eyes were wrinkled shut and who shuffled to school in her slippers had not turned me off piano when I was a child. Several years ago now, I took an intro to music class while doing a post-doc at a wonderful university. The CDs for the intro class included “Who Cares?” a Gershwin song I didn’t know. (I grew up watching Hollywood musicals on TV, so I know my Gershwin.) The lyrics shocked me with their overt references to the stock market crash of 1929. Ella Fitzgerald sings it best, even if the arrangement is a little corny. “Let it rain and thunder / Let a million firms go under / I am not concerned with stocks and bonds that I’ve been burned with / I love you and you love me / And that’s how it will always be / And nothing else can ever mean a thing / Who cares what the public chatters? / Love’s the only thing that matters….” I wonder if America’s fear of financial ruin made this song taboo.


Credits to creators
-tres blah- Sequined Top (S) – Blush (at Collabor88)
illmatic :: “For The People Summer Shorts [L]
Baiastice_Petal Collar Necklace-copper-resizable (at Collabor88)
.:EMO-tions:. * TIZIA*/black hair
.Birdy. Ashley Skin ~CoCo~ (brown)
.Birdy. Lippy coco kiss {90’s pack}
!Ohmai : Antique Bee Ring (Rosegold) (old event item)
*YS&YS*, Bone Bangles (ye olde freebie)
mijn.botique accessories / studded earrings n.2 rgold (old TDRF item)
Maitreya Allure Socks – Sienna
Schadenfreude, Casinelle Rose (at Collabor88)
[UMEBOSHI] Lunar 2 eyes -Earth-
o0o Studio, Elizaveta poses

I swing

solidealngl If you’re a fan of Louis Vuitton you should shop this month’s round of The Couturier’s Docks, which is an homage to Marc Jacobs’s work. The Twiggy outfit from Mila Tatham of Solidea Folies is limited to 50 copies, like every other item. But it comes in black, red, yellow and beige versions, so 200 of us can get ourselves checked out. (That came out wrong, but I like it.)


Credits to creators
*SoliDea FoliEs* Twiggy- Red (at Couturier’s Docks)
Zibska, Rikka ~ Earring [comes with necklace; at TGGS until July 9th; ty Zib Scaggs!)
Tableau Vivant – LL 1/2 gloves (XXS-S) (at Limited Bazaar)
ChaChaDee! – 1970s Heel Reptile Black
-LaViere- momo/PeachDreams
-tb- {Dark} Space Mod – Dark Winged Brows (past event skin)
::Mother Goose’s::. pointed lashes-1
.::Mother Goose’s::. pointed lashes-2
[MONS / Shocking eyes – brown
screen is from W. Winx and Flair, Winxbox Stirred
GIMP walked out on me, slamming the door behind him, probably headed to the sports bar on the corner, which he hates. One more deformed shoulder and it’s over. That’s the last thing he said. Sigh.

Blending in

I decided that I should do some work on accepting the inevitability of winter and snow. This involved dressing Anorak so that she blended into the beautiful landscape and cute cottage on the BCC sim. Please click on the tiny first pic to see one of the adorable new mesh capes from BCC. It’s a steal at 110L. (Even better, one of the capes is set for half price.) Portia’s dress belongs to the Rad avatar offered this past Lazy Sunday at The Plastik. In addition to the lavender and peach dress, the 75L set includes boots, arm-warmers, an elven skin and ears. Aikea Reiko often leaves her Lazy Sunday items out for a few days, so you might still be able to score this one. There’s also a set with a darker palette.

If you haven’t been hunting this month you can’t really call yourself an SL fashion fiend. Anorak’s VR jewellery set, a PMHH gift, is customizable via a comprehensive HUD. I really like the look of the extra-long necklace. Do note that the jewels glows in the dark, so they’re not ideal for nightlife.

Credits to creators
: ) BCC . bambino Cape Gray L (NEW)
:[Plastik]:- Aeris Dress [S]:// Rad (last Lazy Sunday)
VR Jewellery, Long Line02(L) necklace earrings and bracelets (Pimp My Hunters Hunt item)
:::LiNe::: FrillFrill/White (on sale for 49L)
MichaMi: Nina Capris in Steel
{K}Rea Sequined Leggings White (store is closed)
-LaViere- momo/White (free wearable demo)
-tb- Arctic Frost (blonde brows) with -tb- Dark Freckles (not available)
Cheap Makeup, Lashes (Babs) 8
pose one: The Muse Poses, from the Tyche pack (NEW; ty Audrey Cresci!)
location: BCC (thanks to Loco for showing off the sim)

Mod in orbit

Fashion is a cruel mistress. Space fashion is crueler still. Send your av into orbit to model Picnic’s suede outfit for DUnltd19, and the pale colors show all the vomit induced by Art Dummy’s fabulous pose-chair. (Good thing my free emoter was stuck on an appropriate expression.) The mod-in-space theme at DUnltd19 mines a style that I love, but it’s a “white” style on more than one level. So I picked up Tres Blah’s darkest skin to mess with the icon of the Nordic space-blonde. And then I figured the African-inspired shoes from Paper Couture would throw a matching wrench into the ensemble.

You might be wondering how I managed to swing all three swagtastic items on my limited budget. Last week, I broke open my Rupert Giles piggy bank. And then I broke into yours. I’m experimenting with having more money in my virtual pocket, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have to make choices, and it certainly doesn’t mean I don’t go into sticker shock. There are gobsmack stains all over my white catsuit, which is one more reason to always wear black.

Remember that DUnltd19 ends this Sunday.

Credits to creators
outfit: Picnic, 60’s Strawberry Star Perfect Set [helmet stretched to fit Portia’s melonhead] (DUnltd19 item)
shoes: Paper Couture, Suede Platform Pumps Wrapped Jima
skin: Tres Blah, Dark Space Mod Dark Winged Brows (DUnltd19 item)
hair: eha, Rin Sienna
chair and window: Art Dummy, Propelled set
studio: Gauged, Photo Studio 1

Orange coda

It’s like I can’t help myself when it comes to orange. Or, it’s like this cracked doll skin from F’d Up fascinates me. And it’s like these exclusive-colour shoes, which I waited so long to win at G Field’s petit pas mall store, are perfect.

Credits to creators
leggings: Veneno, Jellyfish Tights Orange (promo copy)
top: Pig, part of Hortensia Bikini Quartz
skin: F’d Up, Lauren (Smashed) Broken (NSA Hunt gift)
makeup: Dutch Touch, Yri Caramel Metallic Copper Lips (part of VIP gift)
shoes: G Field, Sophie Autumn Leaf (petit pas LB only)
glasses: Adjunct, Marrakesh Glasses
hair: A.M.K.R, *R* Axel 02 Orange (old freebie)
eyes: Tres Blah, Arctic Eyes (nla)
socks: Sn@tch, Lolli Sock Ruffle Melon
pose: chicadabynilGiha, Metamorphos set (DUnltd19, at the Slow sim, only till the 26th)

Let’s talk about money

This morning Portia and I had an epic pout because she had nothing to wear. Even a quick peek at my inventory, which hit 20,000 items the other day, will reveal that there is plenty of great stuff in there to wear and to show off in this blog. I soon realized that what was actually bumming me out was having only $148L, not enough to buy something special, not, that is, until Friday when I get paid. Sigh thrash sigh thrash. I put myself on a tight budget for SL, $2,000L a week. Sometimes, incredibly, I have money left over. Other times, I buy a skin and a pair of nice shoes and then decide that my budget is so low that I can afford to buy another $1,000L to tide me over. But not today. Today I told myself Portia would have to lie on the bed I had made.

Compared to RL, in which I cannot afford a pair of shoes that even remotely approaches the beauty (or height) of SLink’s Aveela or Maitreya’s Allure, SL is dirt cheap. And chock full of delightful freebies from creators who are, I imagine, inspired to make and to share, but also required to participate in this type of promotion as the price of doing business. (/me sends out giant ball of awe and gratitude to creators.) For someone like me, who hates stuff and is genuinely alarmed by the amount of garbage human beings are generating, the possibility of owning beautiful things that don’t take up space and won’t litter the globe is a dream come true. So why do I limit myself to a weekly budget of about half the price of a movie ticket? And why do I do it when I live in a town that only shows movies so mainstream that I rarely see any? I don’t know the answer to these questions. I estimate that a hundred experiential and psychological factors play into my SL financial decisions. But the dominant feeling of not knowing how much is too much depends in part on the fact that players don’t talk openly about money. I remember that my real life was suddenly much easier to live when someone told me that I should spend a third of my income on rent, unless I wanted to live in a top city, which meant spending closer to half. Where’s that kind of wisdom in SL? And what will it cost me?

Credits to creators
outfit: Nomine, elements from Slip Gown Black (ZombiePopcorn Hunt #59)
necklace: HoD, Fallen Necklace (female and male versions worn)
hair: Kik, Kate03(black) (2000 members subo)
heels: SLink, Aveela Stiletto Herringbone (current TDR Blue item)
bag: LeLutka, No Heart Bag (old gg)
locations: Maven Haus for sulking and Sinners Heaven for skulking


Today I wanted to shoot RunoRuno’s Blur freebies, which I haven’t seen in the feeds. It took me eons to find them on the ground next to her big bed, partly because it took me ages to find the bed, which is shrouded in a fog. I typed “white” into my inventory to accessorize, ultimately deciding that the big Govil necklace I’d seen around was a must-have. (I also typed in “silver” and “grey” so I could do more monochrome looks. You colour-lovers will simply have to endure.) I love the slight transparency of the RunoRuno bodysuit. That’s an indirect way of saying that Anorak’s bewbs look awesome in this slyly sexy silver unitard. For added texture, I overlayered the bodysuit with the matching asymmetric TeeTee that I picked up months ago at the creator’s shop.

Fearing that RunoRuno’s all-particle Blur Dress would make my computer cough up a hairball, I used just the sleeves to give the outfit a bit of couture whimsy. (Think Audrey Hepburn at the Louvre in Funny Face. And then think slacker.)  Again, I have to add the disclaimer that this is not an adequate representation of Blur. This is what my computer would let me have. The sim is magical because it is so so very very blurred into softness. My computer’s version is closer to Russian Constructivism summarily drained of colour.

Credits to creators
bodysuit: RunoRuno, Blur Body Suit (freebie at Blur)
overlayer and gloves: RunoRuno, part of TeeTee (freebie at shop)
particle sleeves: RunoRuno, Blur Dress (freebie at Blur)
necklace: Govil, Pearl Flower Necklace White (LB or 150L, comes with bracelet)
hair: Govil, Hair No5 Black Gift (gg)
skin: Tres Blah, Dashing Blur Makeup (exclusive to Blur)
socks: o*m, Socks-White (freebie 6 pack of colours)
shoes:, Basic Flats White (Sunny free.stuff) (freebie from Sunny sim cafe)
poses: SLC, ZHAO-II MB2.0.17 / la femme AO SLC(LE.Look)