Ice cream, money and she

I toured the Fetish Fair and Romp, where I saw a lot of harnesses and elaborate lingerie sets. I chose this little number from Kinky Monthly because it was different. Nah, that’s a lie. I chose it because it doesn’t cover my av’s hoo ha. This wasn’t a question of aesthetics. This was a question of the throb with which my hoo ha greeted the sight of hers. Of course, you can’t see any hoo has here. I’m noticing a lot more censored bits in Second Life these days, perhaps because of FOSTA and SESTA. And I wanted to get in on the trend. (I also decided to buck it. you can see the uncensored version on Flickr if you accept restricted pictures and you can venture under the cut if you’re 18+.) Continue reading

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Good dolly, bad dolly, mad dolly

I haven’t talked to a friend of mine for two months. Let’s call her C. I am furious with C and can imagine no way of talking about what happened without saying extraordinarily mean things with an extraordinarily mean face. Like me, C is a rope bottom. Unlike me, she does suspensions and can thus ask anyone to tie her. She’s very successful at this because, as I have discovered recently, C demands instead of asking. She seemed very sweet last summer when she asked me to tie her. This was when I started to learn. We scened three times over a couple of months. After the third time, I realized that C is extremely controlling in scene. It’s not so much that she’s incapable of surrender. It seems rather that she uses rope bottoming to intensify her need for control and her experience of scene-time dissatisfaction with tops who can’t control her. I stopped scening over the fall and winter of 2017. The drawn-out ending of the best partnership I’ve ever had, family betrayal and health problems had left me depressed. I didn’t think it would be safe to take responsibility for another person’s psyche during and after a scene. When I started tying again I played with two of our mutual friends and C let me know that she was hurt that I hadn’t asked her. This worried me. It seemed like a self-centered overreaction.

I felt ambivalent about tying C again and avoided the subject. Four months ago C volunteered eagerly to bottom for me in a class and I accepted. C does not hesitate to tell people before, during and after labbing that she is bored by labbing and yet she does it all the time. In conversation, C has said mean things to me about her regular partners, who don’t tie her the way she wants them to tie. The only time she expressed satisfaction with a partner was when they were having a charged (because not quite licit) sexual relationship. Despite being disappointed she ties with everyone, usually with two people a night. Why two people? Because C messages multiple rope tops to ask them to tie and then ties with everyone who says yes.
The incident that prompted my silence occurred on the last day of a convention when attendees were teaching brief classes. C was leaving early. I said it would be nice to spend time with her before she went. That is all I said. I tied C in the toe-rope class and then ran into another friend, B, in the finger-rope class. B is also a bottom who ties. I volunteered to bottom for B. As we started the second exercise, C called out in a childish way “I want to bottom,” to which I replied “I’m her bottom,” in an assertive way. C had no trouble getting the instructor to tie her after that. (Poor little C.) When the session was over C said to me in a prissy voice “A, I would like you to ask me nicely next time you want…” Wow. I could not believe my ears. After I pointed out that I was not being impolite, that I had expressed myself in my usual sassy way, and C was not budging, I observed that I had asserted myself. I waited to see if C caught my drift. She didn’t. I then said in an outrageously insincere manner “I apologize unreservedly.” I said it again, louder and more aggressively I mean unreservedly. I wanted to get away from her. I hadn’t said a word about tying her; she just assumed that was the natural order of things. It was this incident that made me realize that C thinks that all the rope is for her and all the tops are there to serve her (poorly, as it turns out). No other bottom has any standing, any rights or any NEEDs.

Let’s talk about polite before I go any further. If I go to B’s rope salon I say “Hey B, if you haven’t got anything planned yet it would be great if we could lab.” B may say no or she may say yes to my suggestion. She is free to decide. One night C walked into B’s house and said in a bratty voice, “I wanna be tied.” And then she said it again and again until B agreed. C doesn’t ask politely. She demands. Now let’s talk about wants … no let’s talk about needs. I have not bottomed for a scene since last July. I have lived in a state of extreme rope privation. C, who knows this but who has obviously not thought about how that must feel, wanted me to apologize for not asking nicely if I could bottom for ten minutes of finger rope at a con. Ten fucking minutes. Not even a chest harness. Just fingers. Just a tiny bit of rope that would go a long way to satisfying my need to be tied, and my need to be affirmed as a bottom, but would have left C cold.
My wants, my needs are not being met because I can’t scene. At least I have wants and needs that can be met, unlike C. Any scene satisfies some part of me, whether it’s my instinct for surrender, my sense of humor, my libido, my appreciation for the top’s art or a feeling of wonder at how close people can be when they do rope. It may be that scenes satisfy me because, unlike C, I don’t tie with just anyone, and I don’t tie with people I am going to diss behind their back. C thinks she lives in a perfect world in which she ties with all her lovely friends—but she’s in it for the bondage ride and for whatever part of her is satisfied by having something, having anything. I will never tie C again. I will never lab with C again. I don’t know how to tell her that. Can I say this: “C you’re a wonderful person until we get around rope and then you’re a fucking cunt from the deepest circle of hell”?
By the way, when I first wrote this I called C by the letter A. Then I decided that I am A. Because I Am. And because I Am Angry.

Both dollies
all Cureless items are Epiphany gacha
CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Doll Choker / GOLD
CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Dolly Arm RARE (I can haz bento doll handz!)
CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Dolly Leg GOLD
CURELESS[+] Melodic Doll / Quaver Shoes / GOLD
Lelutka, Simone head 3.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
Michan, Meredith Lashes

Good dolly
tram, F1124 HUD B
r2 A/D/E kanna pasties[pink]Maitreya
r2 A/D/E kanna panties[pink]Maitreya
Glam Affair – Kinga ( LeLutka Applier ) Asia
{Frick} Dolly Makeup in Pink {Lelutka App} (past gift)

Bad dolly
Doe: Seren [Fit] – Indecisive (Epiphany gacha)
*PROMAGIC* Kinky -Pasties-Gold (past gacha)
r2 A/D/E haruka panties[black]Maitreya
Glam Affair ( Lelutka Heads ) LiuLy ( Artic ) 02 (past gacha)
Zibska Tini Lips Lelutka Applier

Tomoto at Japonica

If you make a trip to Japonica you will find a gacha by Tomoto. Each outfit consists of a knee-length kimono and a haori (jacket worn over the kimono). I confess that I didn’t like the cream-coloured haori that I won, but I loved the dress. Problem was that the dress has no sleeves: it’s cut to accommodate the haori. A bit of digging in my inventory yielded a haori from a 2017 gacha. I liked it at the time but didn’t want to wear it with the red kimono that came with it. Happily the old haori and the new kimono work well together.
It’s difficult for me to handle the clash of fabrics in Japanese combos, so I am particularly proud of this look. The clash of the white-leaning kimono and cream haori I won at Japonica made me nuts, for instance. And that doesn’t compare to the possible dissonance of three or more Japanese fabrics in one ensemble. A final note for perfectionists: the kimono has a flared skirt, which I had to edit out of the photos. See how devoted I am to fashion and to you?

Credits
tomoto, mini-kimonoF wave jour han-eri (can only be worn with a haori) (current gacha @ Japonica)
tomoto, haoriF 2017W (past gacha)
May’s Soul, Loto hair stick L black
Luas, Izumi Okobo Blue (past gacha)
Amacci Hair, Maria ~ Dark Copper
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
-Glam Affair – Sasha skin – India 01 F
{S0NG} :: San~ Aqua Eye

Black net, bloody bites and bruised blossoms

Pics 1 and 3
NEW Mushilu, Carle Dress Red RARE (gacha at Kinky Monthly)
-KC-, [MAITREYA] -KC- BLAIR PLATEAU / PAIR
Amacci, Hair Maria ~ Black Coal (on Marketplace for sure—an oldie, comes with big flowers for the hair)
:Moon Amore: Liberte / Blindfold / Rougue (past gacha)
:Moon Amore: Liberte / Papillon Gag / Rougue (past gacha)
.ARISE. Lip Drool (with resizer)
S&P, Collar of O (OC SIX) Lara, comes with cuffs
The White Crow, 5 COMMON -[TWC]- Proverb (past gacha)
The White Crow, 9 RARE -[TWC]- Blossom (past gacha)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
-Glam Affair – Aria – Artic 05 A (past gacha)
*MSS*, So sad little geisha dark brows *MSS*black (not available; I miss Miss Shippe)

Pic 2
:Moon Amore: Florence Lingerie / Bra – Floral Burgundy, comes with Florence Lingerie / Panty&Straps – Floral Burgundy (last month’s Collabor88)
-FABIA- Mesh Hair Gift 1 (past anniversary gift for
::Axix:: Beloved Nocturnia Gag (past Bound Box)
S&P, Collar of O (OC SIX) Lara, comes with cuffs
antielle. Appetizer / Bites & Blood (Medium) (Hard)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
-Glam Affair – Sasha skin – India 01 G (past gacha)

streetscape: Joplino, Backdrop Far Eastern (subscribo gift)
poses: Imeka, Kylie

Blog’s labour lost

I first accessorized Salt’s Brianna dress when it was a fresh offering at April’s ROMP. I used a cute hairstyle that came with a rose gag, something I picked up at a pervy fair running at the same time. I even had the perfect pose, also from that fair. Anise, my av, was looking sweet-but-hot in her Glam Affair applier. I was going to take achingly au courant pictures. But I didn’t have the time to shoot. When I popped the outfit on my av yesterday, I discovered that the hair/gag appeared dated and my av’s face seemed silly. It took me ages to refresh the look. I’d already used the pose in another post, so I went in search of a prop. You know how it goes. I shot for ages in a pose prop I wasn’t excited about, never getting a photo I was happy with. Finally, I chose a Windlight I no longer use and got this stunning effect. It’s still not an ensemble I’m happy with, and it doesn’t show off the amazing dress, which has a temptingly open backside. But it’s an aesthetic departure for me so I was excited by it. This in spite of the fact that my av looks ugly and demented (thanks to a free Foxcity expression HUD). All that hard work and frustration and all the unbeauty I reluctantly embraced led to the inevitable: the pic tanked on Flickr.*
Meanwhile, I threw together this outfit in a hot minute. It includes a colour-change dress by Scandalize and hair by Fabia, both gifts at Très Chic. I shot it quickly, when I was too tired to try anything fancy, and with no plan to post it. I used a tried-and-true Windlight and an old pose I adopt far too often. Guess what happened. It’s steaming up the charts on Flickr.(Okay, as steaming as my photos get.** It’s going to get more than 20 likes.) The moral of the story is: fuck this blogging thing is fucking hard to figure out, even after 7 years. Also: don’t let me go to Uber.

*Pubic hair means the pic is restricted. Since it’s not erotic I didn’t post it in any of the sexy/sex groups. Maybe I should have done better by it.
**In fact, there’s not so much steam here. It’s a comparatively classy ensemble.

Credits for things I didn’t mention in the post
Pic one
pose prop by EvoLove
hair by Dura
cuffs/collar by Salt and Pepper
ginger (yay) pubic hair by Rose and Elin’s Curiosity Shoppe on Marketplace
Pic two
location Comhar (see last post for URL)
shoes old N-Core gift
pose so so olde PDA perfection

The night senpai noticed me…

…I noticed that the moon was full. Looking sweet and kinky in my galaxy uniform, a group gift from Violent Seduction, I had no trouble convincing senpai to follow me to the forest, where, I promised, he could see my petal-white skin and bleached pubic hair shine more brightly than any celestial body. The razor-sharp clouds and black bare trees made senpai a little nervous. But that’s how I like them—young, dumb and giggling with fear.

Credits
NEW Violent Seduction – Jabami Maitreya (Galaxy) (group gift) (see my Flickr for a shot of the outfit with the top removed and the rope revealed)
[monso] My Hair – Yoon/ Fruit Pack – White
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 3.0
Glam Affair, Ilary (Lelutka applier) Petal (was a 50L Friday item)
L’Etre.Les accessoires – Diamond septum [BLACK/SILVER] (old gift)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
NOX. Astral [White] tattoo
=Zenith=Xue Nu Okobo (Tiffany) -Maitreya (past gacha)
Caboodle – Amorous Panties – Bubblegum – Maitreya (past gacha)
Nuwiggles, Forever Alone forest setting (available for use at Comhar public photo studio)

Lazy space lady

This pic of my avatar wearing Aoi by r2 A/D/E is sexy. The one under the cut features a classic porn pose—which reminds me of an Eric Fischl painting—and is possibly also sexy. Aoi is a departure for creator Rei2 Aya because the sides of the sleeves and boots are emblazoned with cybery writing rather than colour-blocked or transparent. You can find Aoi at Collabor88. Continue reading

Dressed for it

SK’s Maeve outfit is not a dress. It’s a blouse, a skirt, a belt and a shoulder harness that can be worn together to look like a dress. Or they can be worn separately, scandalously, to realize bondage fantasies that work for cocktail hour in a contemporary city or slave days in centuries-old Marrakech. Visit We <3 Roleplay to choose from a range of lovely colours. Did you trade in Epiphany items for points? Did you remember to redeem your points? I scored the Naberius Iron Eater earrings. And some bubbles…not shown here.

Credits
*Sweet  Kajira* Maeve LILAC Maitreya (We <3 Roleplay)
tram, H0223 hair / HUD-A
//Naberius// Iron Eater Earrings (Exclusive) (redeem points to snag this at Epiphany gacha)
*{( konpeitou )}* Matsuri gacha -10- branded clogs (black) (past gacha)
MOONSTORE, Ribbon-collar (1L on Marketplace)
[BREATHE]-Inci Bracelet-Black (gift at Gacha Garden)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
-Glam Affair – Sasha skin – India 01
[CX] Noh Eyeliner Style 1 (Tintable)
FGInc.+ A Blessed Kiss face tattoo, Gold (gift at Gacha Garden)
{S0NG} :: Cupid~ Grey Eye
Minimal-Marrakech backdrop

Pony play night and day

If I waited any longer to find the right words, and add all the credits, these pics would molder on my desktop.
My av is outfitted in elements from the Lovely Sadist gacha by Cureless, including white pony mitts and the rare colour-change costume. The costume is a complex ensemble but it has to be worn all at once. The fun is in assigning colours to the half-dozen pieces. My av is prancing prettily in astoundingly beautiful footwear, konpeitou’s hooved geta from the sakura-ame gacha collection. Connoisseurs will notice that konpeitou’s surreal tabi are shot through with a blossoming cherry tree branch. Both gacha collections are at The Epiphany until May 12th. My command of Simone’s facial expressions has improved. I reached way back to give my av an extra-sexy feminist air by dusting off LeLutka’s Brigitte hairdo, named of course for la Bardot. She’s got legs.

Credits
Pink version
CURELESS[+] Lovely Sadist / BabyDom Attire / RARE (Epiphany gacha)
CURELESS[+] Lovely Sadist / Pony Mittens / WHITE (Epiphany gacha)
*{( konpeitou )}* sakura-ame * GETA sakura petal (Epiphany gacha)
*{( konpeitou )}* sakura-ame * TABI sakura branch ((Epiphany gacha)
Kibitz – Bling choker – fem white – gold (Epiphany gacha)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
[LeLutka]-BRIGITTE hair – Marilyn
.LeLutka.Head.Simone 3.0

Black version
Doe: Peyton – Indecisive
CURELESS[+] Lovely Sadist / BabyDom Attire / RARE (Epiphany gacha)
CURELESS[+] Lovely Sadist / Pony Stockings / BLACK (Epiphany gacha)
+Spellbound+ Magical Pony Bit // Gold/Pitch
#187# Handcuffs Melee Black-Gold
Ama. : Whipped Ass and Thighs : Maitreya Applier
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
CURELESS[+] Lovely Sadist / Kinky stuffie / BLACK (Epiphany gacha)