Another thoroughly modern mistress

I quarantined to see my mother, who has dementia and who I haven’t seen since March. That meant daily anxiety miraculously cured enough by clonazepam that I stopped thinking about throwing myself off the balcony. I didn’t have a problem not leaving the rented apartment for 14 days. I did have a problem functioning. Things are only marginally better now. I can no longer stand to go for the walks that have sustained me thus far through COVID. I am just too discouraged and aimless.

Luckily, I managed one day to escape to SL, where I shot another of my modern mistresses. Yes it’s possible to top without wearing only straps and heels! For those of you who do not possess a bio-cock, Abrasive’s inexpensive strap-on fat pack allows you to change colours of the panties and the prick. I have to say that none of the colors looks that appealing in darkness. Experiment with all the lights on!

I find this Zenith top (and panties not shown) incredibly sexy. It’s made of a very fine translucent and oh-so-touchable material. Neither it nor the loose harness (that can be worn alone) is constricting. I’m a rope top so I understand the need to move in my outfits. Sexy is not about what we show but what we don’t show. The body is there and it’s almost within reach. Unless one has to be a good boy or girl or non-binary bottom and NOT TOUCH.

Winter is always a good time to start with some sensation play.


[ abrasive ] Passion Strap-On – Maitreya – Fat Pack

*COCO*_ThighHighBoots(Black)_MT NEW

=Zenith=Harnesses Top (Black) Maitreya 

Avada~ Ballerina Matrix Nails – Maitreya (Materials)

e.marie // Lia Earrings  – VIP gift

etham – Leather Cuff Bracelet – Heavy Duty (old)

.: Fiore :. High Expectations Pony (back) NEW with

.: Fiore :. Wispy Corner Hairs – Tone 1 / Chestnut

.: Fiore :. Slick N’ High Hairbase – Tone 1 / Chestnut

Jack Spoon . Presley Gloss – Lelutka Evolution (at Sultry)

Jack Spoon . summer BEAUTY MARKS2 (group gift)

[Glam Affair] Anika Layer [Lelutka] 003 E

LeLUTKA.Head.Ryn.2.5 (static ears)

Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3

last shot: Fashiowl – Are You Home

most shots: Stun, Melani

I want to be her

I stopped blogging kinky outfits because of the glut of hyper-sexualized heteronormative outfits I was seeing everywhere on the grid. 50 Shades of Grey must have sold many more copies than I thought. Delicate-looking lingerie with plenty of straps was feeling v. lite, like bedroom bondage babewear. The sight of thongs made from pearls bound to slide up one’s hoohaw had me worried about realism.

Happily, I found the Pretzel lingerie and straps from Vinyl, which look solid, comfortably contemporary. There is no underwire in that bra, no big bazooms boasting soft power. If not perfectly non-binary, the outfit at least swings butch with the right pair of practical boots from Asteroid Box. They are perfect for stomping and a bootblack’s dream. The semi-concealed knife could work well for fear play. C’est la vie’s wool over-the-knee socks keep cold dungeon air at bay and aren’t going to tear during a scene.

And then there’s Moon’s Noeky hair with feathery bangs. In the 1940s, my paternal grandmother threatened to disown her daughter when she got her hair cut in bangs. Because only the bad girls wore bangs on the silver screen.


VINYL – Pretzel Bra , Panties, Harnesses- Maitreya Lara

AsteroidBox. Obsidian Boots – Maitreya Lara

C’est La Vie—Jody rib socks #2 (these are an olde version—look for the new version)


Zibska, Cynthia ~ Crop (olde)

Kibitz – Elle’s choker – onyx

itGirls -HAKU (Lelutka Nova Head) 1

La Malvada Mujer – La Marchesa Lipstick /Lelutka BoM N7

Jack Spoon . summer BEAUTY MARKS1 (group gift)

La Malvada Mujer – Love  / Brows  N2 Lelutka (group gift)

LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)

Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1

Psycho Pills – Usagi Shape edited 

MUDSKIN, Softy Lens 7 Lelutka (ARCADE gacha)

Poses: 1 and 3 Mewsery, Senpai poses; 2 [x] Schoolgirl 1 (olde)

LOTD at last

I am becoming a Look of the Day blogger. The looks are going to be varied because Portia’s style is eclectic. One day she’s a lazy space-warrior. Today she’s a Loli lite and a lot uptight in her establishment pinstripe dress by Pixicat. There’s actually going to be a lot of black in the coming days but not a lot of flesh.
I love this skin from It Girls, so much so that I didn’t add a lippy, just colourful brows and greyish liner, group gifts from the fabulous Faina Cortes of La Malvada Mujer. Honestly, adding a lippy is not easy. Either the lipstick doesn’t cover the lower lip or it makes the mouth wholly round, killing the cute v-shape in the top lip. The Rain hair from Tableau Vivant comes with a dry version but I figured it’s okay for one part of Portia’s body to be wet and the rest dry. This isn’t after all Real Life.


~Tableau Vivant~ Rain hair – B – B+W (NEW at Uber I think)
-Pixicat- Rowan Dress – PinStripeBlack (Maitreya)
itGirls – HAKU (Lelutka Nova Head) 1 – Pearl Face (BOM)
Jack Spoon . summer BEAUTY MARKS1 (group gift)
La Malvada Mujer – Love / Brows N2 Lelutka (group gift) (BOM for Genus, Catwa and LeLutka)
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
e,marie-Bailey Earrings silvers pack
Pure Poison – Le Ballet Flats – Black for Maitreya (ye olde footweare)
Violent Seduction – Midi Latex Gloves (old gift)
Horntail—Maitreya Maku stockings (gift)
some old stockings underneath the mesh stockings (tat)
Pose Maniacs, Breathing 5


I have a confession to make. I spend my weekend mornings happily shopping the sales, picking up enough cheap stuffs to compile and style a look. I’m talking about Fifty Linden Friday, which yielded the delectable CURELESS tattoos worn here, The Saturday Sale, Happy Weekend. Sometimes I’ll spy something from Wanderlust Weekend, which is aimed at role players. My fave is So Kawaii Sunday, which is like a vein of cute and sexy gold. In this photo Portia is sporting 8 steals. Thanks to these sales I’ve been able to experiment with skins from Pyscho Pills, which Portia is wearing with green hair, and Heaux, which Portia is wearing with a fetching fascinator. Because the skin is 75 L at most, paying for the body to match the tone feels like a sweet deal. These newer skin lines are doing wonderful work for LeLutka Evo.
I loved slipping on Wen, a fascinator with choker (not shown) and delicate orbits. The earrings from Hate Me and Eat Me are so cool that I used them again for my green-haired girl. The fatpack is only 150 L at Lybra. I learned to do a thing where I can make Portia’s eyes glossy! These are a gift from La Malvada Mujer. Faina Cortes makes excellently odd eyes.
It’s hard to believe that we’re back to layers. I saved all of mine. They aren’t high-def, but I was pleased with my pale-green tinted Noh brows, an oldie from [CX]. Portia’s hair by Doe is the fabulous Kraken pack.

Credits (I have very little control over WordPress’s new editor so the spacing is borked)

Look Gold and Green and Miffed

R2 A/D/E sou bottom[Gold]Maitreya (at Collabor88)
R2 A/D/E sou top[Gold]Maitreya (at Collabor88)
Psycho Pills x A.Doutzen – Usagi Skin Eyelid 2 W/B (icecream)

Psycho Pills – Usagi Shape edited
{S0NG} :: Ada Eyes – Lime Green (Omega applier)
[CX] Noh Eyebrows (Tintable)
+FATHER+ Flutter Shadow – Greenblue – BOM
CURELESS[+] Moonlight Revenge / Pelvis
CURELESS[+] Moonlight Revenge / ChestPsycho Pills x A.Doutzen –
Doe: Lynn – Kraken
RAWR! Cuban Bracelet
Secrets, Sweet Butterfly Piercing
Mug – Aysha Sandal
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
pose: Stun, Tai (with gun)
pose: Stun, Diana (medium shot)

Look Fascinating

Zibska, Wen Headpiece
Zibska, Eveline Lips 18
La Malvada Mujer, Alpha Eyes (past gift, now 45 L)
[Heaux] Kate Skin – Light Brows – Shell
Psycho Pills – Usagi Shape edited
-Pixicat- Rebel Jacket – Mint (Maitreya)
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
pose: Fox City, Portrait pose

Halloween dreamed

WordPress won’t let me use the old editor so I have no idea how to share all the
beautifully scary ideas I have floating around in my head.
I gave up on posting this a few days before Halloween because WordPress
wouldn’t let me edit or publish what I was able to toss together.
I’m trying out Safari now in the hope that it will work.
If this works you will be able to read me say “I hope you had a lovely Halloween.
Don’t hate me for having no control over line spacing.”

Credits Pics 1 and 2

CURELESS[+] Moirai Sisters / M / Atropos Torso / RARE

CURELESS[+] Moirai Sisters / M / Moirai Collar / RARE

CURELESS[+] Moirai Sisters / Fata Tattoo PINK / RARE

Zibska Rus Makeup 01 (gift at Shop and Hop)

CURELESS[+] Red Dragon Marking / L+R+Forehead

Mad’ – Infected FaceTattoo [light] [Full]

[CX] Noh Eyeliner Style 1 light black (old tattoo layer)

[Glam Affair] Anika Layer [Lelutka] 003 E

[TWC]- Blossom body tattoo (past rare gacha)

#*.bunnyboo.* spooked nails red LEGACY

#187# Nose Piercing Spikes

::Axix:: Arisu Gatcha Gloves [Red] // MAITREYA (gacha)

::Axix:: Arisu Gatcha Okobos [Red] // MAITREYA (gacha)

Clawtooth: Dark Queen (Small/Med Bust) – Dark Ombre

LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)

Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1

Pic 1 pose: Mewsery, Senpai Bento Pose Pack

Pic 2 kiwi / Spooky Balloon Pumpkin

Credits Pics 3 and 4

LERONSO// Group gift/ Halloween Gift 2020 – LELUTKA (with shape)

THIS IS WRONG Baroque eyebrows BLACK

La Malvada Mujer – Dominique / red (group gift)

Mad’ – Infected FaceTattoo [light] [Full] (group gift)

Velour, Ingrid HD Lips Goth Vs. 2

CURELESS[+] Moirai Sisters / M / Clotho Dress / BLACK (past gacha)

#*.Bunnyboo.* Spooked Nails Red.

Caboodle – Nun’s Habit (group gift)

Kibitz – Razor earrings

Peekaboo – Neon Cross

#187# Nose Piercing Spikes

phedora ~ Jezebel Boots ~ Maitreya

LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)

Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1

Pic 3 kiwi / Spooky Balloons

Pic 4 pose: Stun, Anim Pack Collection Bento Nurse 38

I didn’t know…

…my av could look this cute. I’ve long admired this kind of Asian face with a long nose. I imagined that only the most skilled manipulator of at least five factors could get this look. Turns out all I needed was the Usagi skin in icecream from Psycho Pills with the shape included. Remember those crazy days when we couldn’t look like the picture on the box?!
This is the time of year when all the creators get their bikinis out on the shelves. I figured I’d also pretend that we are not yet faced with the ugly kale and chrysanthemums of fall.

Psycho Pills x A.Doutzen – Usagi Skin Eyelid 2 (icecream) comes with Psycho Pills – Usagi Shape and brows
Izzie’s – Eyebrow Concealer 05 65%
[Heaux] Cute Bits – Wet Gloss, Inner Eye Highlight, Blush
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
tram, J0713 hair(S)(Style1) HUD C I think
Tee*fy Myla Shorts – Lime – Maitreya
Tee*fy Romy Lacey Top- Jellybean – Maitreya
.::Supernatural::. Maddie Necklace Gold
[RHUDE] Easy Earring lt Gold
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
Stun Poses, Diana pack

I have been very bad…

…about blogging. I put outfits together by dutifully shopping the weekend sales. Then I don’t blog them. I am playing dress-up.
…about using LODE headpieces, gacha that are always fashioned from lovely flowers.

*LODE* Head Accessory – Youth Large [orange] (gacha)
DOUX – Elijah Hairstyle [S/Boobs]TETRA – Anniversary skirt – Maitreya (fatpack group gift)
TETRA – Wrap crop top – Maitreya
Zibska, Iskra Eyemakeup 01
[Glam Affair] Anika Layer [Lelutka] 003 D
Rainbow Sundae, Elementalist tattoo
friday – May Sandals (Midnight)
Kibitz – Hostile’s chain – gold
Kibitz – Round chain choker – gold
Kibitz – Zaris bracelet – right – gold
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
DeeTaleZ, Shape for LeLutka Evo Head *Erin*
poses by Le Poppycock

The one where I talk about everything

June is Pride month and all the parades are canceled, but Second Life is dripping with celebratory gifts. I’m glad Portia is wearing the rainbow flag on Seniha’s shirt because the asexual flag is depressing (lavender, grey, black and white). I am making strides towards claiming my asexuality: I messaged a presenter who was giving a talk about “sexual empowerment” for femme-identifying tops to let her know that topping doesn’t have to be about sex. I haven’t heard back from her. I hope she will change her way of thinking, not just add a sentence saying “You do you” to asexual people.
We are all grappling with the potential revolution in race relations in the USA, hence Portia’s Vobe “fuck racism” necklace. These are some of the things I want to tell white people about what I’ve learned thus far. Racism is systemic: it’s the policies and cultures we need to change, not the minds of individuals. Racism is a white problem; we need to solve it. Freaked-out, fragile white people need to consider how much less threatened we are than African Americans who live in fear. We need to pull ourselves together. It’s not up to African Americans to educate white people about racism. We need to do the research. I can recommend Ibram X. Kendi’s book How to Be an Antiracist. And this list of anti-racist resources.
The last thing I want to convey is a safety message for bondage enthusiasts. You should never wear cuffs as loose as Portia’s. The more a cuff can move the more likely it is to end up putting pressure on the nerves on the inside area of the wrist just above where it meets the hand. Make sure your cuff sits above this area and won’t move. Or if you’re using rope, do a tear-shaped cuff rather than a circle. When your arms are attached to an upline hold onto the upline to reduce pressure on your wrists.

Seniha. Pride Top // Maitreya (gift)
VOBE – FuckRacism Necklace (gift)
S&P, O cuff
[RHUDE] Easy Earring lt Gold
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
tram, I0528 hair
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears)
Mudskin, Anna shade 102

On the prowl

You can add a photo of yourself to the Missing panel on Iso Darling’s milk carton. Portia drinks 1% at home, skim in her coffee when she’s in town, 2% when she travels. Portia pretends she doesn’t know how to say “skim” in Italian and accepts the 2% graciously. Of course right now nobody can travel. And everyone feels flummoxed trying to drink milk while masked.
You may have one more day to scoop up R2 A/D/E’s Kamari outfit at Collabor88. (This was a pricey one. 388L to get the whole outfit.) Sadly, La Malvada Mujer’s tattoo is no longer available. Perhaps you bought it in a spree at Enchantment and haven’t worn it yet.

r2 K/E/N, kamari[Black]Maitreya (at Collabor88 for one more day)
La Malvada Mujer, Dream On Tattoo (was at Enchantment)
tram, I0528 hair HUD C
NATIVE URBAN – 2020 Safety Mask Black (group gift)
Eudora 3D, Eos Bracelets (gift at Fameshed)
[RHUDE] Easy Earring lt Gold
LeLUTKA.Head.Erin.1.0(static ears) EVO Line
[Glam Affair] Adele Layer [Lelutka] 004 A with the shape
Zibska, Sisel Eyemakeup 03
.Birdy. Red (Scar) Porcelaine (n/a)
.lovelysweet. cheekie accents black hearts (gift)
Izzie’s – Blush / Contour Remover 02 (65%)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.1
Iso Darling – Spooky Milk Carton (Stay at Home Club gift)
STUN – Pose Pack Collection Bento ‘Juliana’ #128,
shot at Little World