When I was 26 I fell in love with a married man who was twice my age. I had never met anyone with such PRESENCE. He was a feast and he had a huge appetite for me. Neither of us scraped by on salad with stale croutons.
It fell apart quickly but slowly. The days between me saying “I want to stop this” and actually stopping were numerous and long. We remained friends for a while after we stopped having sex. After I learned to go a month without him it was safe to have lunch. As time wore on, however, I needed to know whether he had truly been in love with me, so I asked him if we could talk about our relationship. He said “To talk about it would be to start it again.” I had no way of responding to that—the last thing I wanted was to dive in again. My enforced silence was the first stage in a resolution to stop seeing him. For good.
Twenty-four years after I made the decision to never contact him again a very small part of me wondered if I’d regret this. He’s my mother’s age, and she’s not well. What if he dies? I asked myself. Could I live with being too late? I’m going to have to live with it. He’s not dead but he is too ill to see me. We’re really never going to talk about it. And yet I don’t completely regret my decision to stay silent for a quarter of a century. All those years ago he checked out and left me holding the bag. I decided then to put the bag down. It’s down for eternity.
Violent Seduction – The Strawberry – Maitreya (Black) and (Red) (available this weekend only) (opaque version included)
CURELESS [+] LoveSick / Love Vaccines (25L gacha till August 31)
CURELESS [+] LoveSick / MAITREYA / Bowie Plats / BLACK (25L gacha till August 31)
CURELESS [+] LoveSick / MAITREYA / Stockings / RED (25L gacha till August 31)
Kibitz – Leather collar princess (discounted gacha till August 31)
VINYL – Jello Shots Panties – Maitreya
Doe: Ingrid – Kraken pack
THIS IS WRONG Inked tattoo HW – BoM
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3
LeLUTKA.Head.Lilly.2.5 (static ears)
STUN poses, Juliana
MD, padded room not available (I’ve signed a long-term lease)
The news is grim for those of us who have loved gacha lo these ten+ years. Linden Labs have banned gachas as of August 31st on the grounds that they may constitute gambling and thus likely exploit psychological weaknesses in players. I have never gone too far when playing gacha. This is partly because I let the first couple of items determine where I’m going to take an outfit and then I buy the rest of it on Marketplace. (I’d say that my obsessive time-consuming gacha mania came when people set up places to sell their unwanted gachas. I cammed acres of Second Life as Area Search glitched. Marketplace saved me from this.) So say I’m playing Dami’s Agnes at The Crystal Heart Fair and I get a pair of red shoes on the first pull and a navy veil on the second and third. I don’t like the red shoes, so I decide to build an outfit around the veil. And look what an outfit I built! Items from fave gacha creators Cureless and Zenith, a very olde schoole camera, a rare flaming lei by E.V.E, and rare tats from Fallen Gods and The White Crow.
One of the other reasons I’ve never gone too far is because I have a habit of winning rare within four plays. Either rare isn’t that hard to come by or I am blessed. I had seen the tat by The White Crow, shown above, but couldn’t recall where. I got some help from a group and they pointed out it’s rare. I got it on the first pull and Portia has worn it consistently. Here she pairs it with a gacha ensemble by Luas. The rare tabi/okobo can be seen in my Hallowe’en complaint.
Two of my favorite gacha looks are kinky Odeur de Cuir and Vintage Romance from Enfant Terrible. You can still play these gachas. As of this writing they have not been discounted. Some creators’ gachas have been discounted. Some have been turned into fat packs at high prices like L5,000.
Cureless gachas have been discounted to 25L a pull. They are also available as fat packs. Here Portia wears a Cureless gacha bodysuit with lots of room for her heart. I have won many rare Cureless items over the years and I love the sexy horror they bring to Portia’s wardrobe. See one of the rare tats in When a Witch Shoots Playboy. (I didn’t blog this Easter look and I don’t recall who made the olde booming bunny ears, but the makeup is Izzie’s on Marketplace.)
Zenith’s skillfully created Medic Gacha was another inspiring product. All Zenith gachas are discounted to 25L.
Probably my favorite gacha item ever is the pygmy puffs, which are animated to stick out their tongues. They came in many desirable colours from Anya Ohmai’s Ohmai Emporium. Here Portia cuddles them in a skin by The Plastik, which is now Petrichor.
The one thing I hate is a gacha where the clothing is rare. In this case, Sweetie by Violent Seduction, I was able to gather all the accessories but not the dress. So Portia had a nude shoot. Sure, create special outfits that are rare but don’t make those the only things that keep your avi rated G. Here Portia sports a This is Wrong tattoo.
A big win for me was this fabulously bejewelled rare Gothic Queen avatar by Antielle and May’s Soul.
By far the biggest gacha craze I witnessed was the hammie frenzy when Beetlebones came out with deliciously colored small round hamster avis with the cutest butts you have ever seen. I wrote one of my best posts, Inside the Bubble, about the disparity in pricing and illogical designation of the most desirable of hammies. This was a long time ago, but I have this vague memory that the hammies could dance….
Credits for the first look
=Zenith=Shen le kimono (Cherry) -Maitreya (gacha) (discounted to 25L)
DAMI.AGNES LOOK #Veil-NAVY (gacha at Crystal Heart fair)
Fallen Gods Inc.+ THANATOS tattoo, Tintable RARE (all Fallen Gods gachas have been withdrawn already)
9 RARE -[TheWhiteCrow]- Blossom tattoo (I found no sign of this gacha instore)
No, now don’t get excited. This isn’t a new thing to do to your bottom’s body with needles and thread. This is an old-fashioned way of classing up your fetish gear. The Maria Shirt by Asteroid Box was a 50 Linden Friday special: there are smooth, sweet-looking snakes embroidered around the breasts and on the back. The floral pack of the Ila boots by Lybra gives us a bouquet stitched into blue denim. This look was supposed to conjure up another one of my modern mistresses or slaves—a player who doesn’t lead with their bared breasts. I figure this girl is a budding switch, trying to give out a top vibe. She’s a conscientious player. In some of her pouches she’s carrying things like dental floss for micro-bondage, rubber elastics for nipple torture, and clothes pins for tongue trapping. But she’s also packing healthy 72% dark chocolate for aftercare and a vial of arnica so she can alleviate any bottom’s pain, swelling, and bruising. (I carried arnica until I realized bottoms don’t want any of those things ameliorated.)
This is more like it: waiting in the dark at Sole, a femdom dungeon.
Legacy makeup my lovelies: old tat layers of bitty brows and face paint from ARISE.
AsteroidBox. Maria Shirt – Maitreya – FLF Exclusive
I’m marking Pride month with every celebratory heart in my inventory. Pride has expanded beyond the gay male community to represent multiple gender and sexual communities. This year I learned that the kink community is not friendly to asexuals. It’s great to see virtual rope classes that are dedicated to “LGBTQ” students. But where does that leave the I and the A students? The online asexual munch listed on FetLife consistently drew only two or three RSVPs. A recent Dating Kinky event on asexuality was canceled and has not been rescheduled. I like to joke that an asexual event will only work if it’s geared towards their allies. If the allies show up a few of us ace-types can sneak in. Read “Making Space for Ace (Asexuals) at Your Sex and Kink Parties.”
See you on the beach with this bag, a gift from Belle Epoque at Shop & Hop, where merchants are celebrating SL18B as well as Pride. My av’s hair is Mina’s gift at Shop & Hop. Limos below.
Belle Epoque, Candice Bag Pride Edition (gift at Shop & Hop)
MINA Hair – Shop & Hop 2021 hair (gift at Shop & Hop)
In December of 2020 I decided that I was tired of seeing female tops and bottoms wearing almost nothing. Enough with the flesh, I thought. I pumped out two solidly clad mistresses but lost steam before I got to this submissive. Believe it or not, I have been hobbling around the grid in ballet boots and straitjacket for more than five months.
The Duchesse boots by Voluptas Virtualis are gorgeous sleek treats, the first high-quality boot I’ve seen in 14 years inworld. The fat pack is affordable, so you can play with colour combos until your top cries red. The boots come in matte and glossy versions. Sadly, Faina Cortes has closed her inworld store, La Malvada Mujer, but you can find goods like the Rhea tattoo on Marketplace.
The highly detailed straitjacket—with the lovely name of Sealed Entity—is by CerberusXing. It comes with a bloody version. There is also a male version.
This pic gets closer to the feeling of fearful anticipation I’d like to experience in the dungeon. It’s too dark to be a fashion photo but too static to capture the energy of a scene, so it’s not winning any awards from kinksters or fashionistas over at Flickr. It is, however, bigger, so go savor the shadows. Thank you to Twizsted Cynaiade, who helped me find the legacy Windlight I used for this, my first shoot with the souped-up environment settings.
I quarantined to see my mother, who has dementia and who I haven’t seen since March. That meant daily anxiety miraculously cured enough by clonazepam that I stopped thinking about throwing myself off the balcony. I didn’t have a problem not leaving the rented apartment for 14 days. I did have a problem functioning. Things are only marginally better now. I can no longer stand to go for the walks that have sustained me thus far through COVID. I am just too discouraged and aimless.
Luckily, I managed one day to escape to SL, where I shot another of my modern mistresses. Yes it’s possible to top without wearing only straps and heels! For those of you who do not possess a bio-cock, Abrasive’s inexpensive strap-on fat pack allows you to change colours of the panties and the prick. I have to say that none of the colors looks that appealing in darkness. Experiment with all the lights on!
I find this Zenith top (and panties not shown) incredibly sexy. It’s made of a very fine translucent and oh-so-touchable material. Neither it nor the loose harness (that can be worn alone) is constricting. I’m a rope top so I understand the need to move in my outfits. Sexy is not about what we show but what we don’t show. The body is there and it’s almost within reach. Unless one has to be a good boy or girl or non-binary bottom and NOT TOUCH.
Winter is always a good time to start with some sensation play.
I stopped blogging kinky outfits because of the glut of hyper-sexualized heteronormative outfits I was seeing everywhere on the grid. 50 Shades of Grey must have sold many more copies than I thought. Delicate-looking lingerie with plenty of straps was feeling v. lite, like bedroom bondage babewear. The sight of thongs made from pearls bound to slide up one’s hoohaw had me worried about realism.
Happily, I found the Pretzel lingerie and straps from Vinyl, which look solid, comfortably contemporary. There is no underwire in that bra, no big bazooms boasting soft power. If not perfectly non-binary, the outfit at least swings butch with the right pair of practical boots from Asteroid Box. They are perfect for stomping and a bootblack’s dream. The semi-concealed knife could work well for fear play. C’est la vie’s wool over-the-knee socks keep cold dungeon air at bay and aren’t going to tear during a scene.
And then there’s Moon’s Noeky hair with feathery bangs. In the 1940s, my paternal grandmother threatened to disown her daughter when she got her hair cut in bangs. Because only the bad girls wore bangs on the silver screen.
VINYL – Pretzel Bra , Panties, Harnesses- Maitreya Lara
AsteroidBox. Obsidian Boots – Maitreya Lara
C’est La Vie—Jody rib socks #2 (these are an olde version—look for the new version)
Zibska, Cynthia ~ Crop (olde)
Kibitz – Elle’s choker – onyx
itGirls -HAKU (Lelutka Nova Head) 1
La Malvada Mujer – La Marchesa Lipstick /Lelutka BoM N7
Jack Spoon . summer BEAUTY MARKS1 (group gift)
La Malvada Mujer – Love / Brows N2 Lelutka (group gift)