Dominatrix Barbie?

I couldn’t sleep that night. I spent the evening in the studio. I didn’t write, didn’t sing. Well maybe a little. Honestly, I don’t remember, not after what happened in the morning. That night, though, I know I felt blue. About being alone. I have a wonderful career but love eludes me. Success sets me apart from everyone else. Except her. That, at least, is what I’d like to believe.

Round morning I was waiting on the floor, just as my mystery top instructed. I’d received the obnoxious pink paddle by messenger. Obnoxious because pink, but also—paddles hurt more when they’re punched out, especially when the holes are hearts. I wasn’t sure, but the colour and the hearts told me it was from her. From Barbie. I just didn’t know which one….

Credits

-Pixicat- Irene Dress Long – FlowerSmallLight (Reborn) (at The Fifty)

CLOCKHAUS – Stamp Me Collar White

WINGS-ER0408-HAIR brown pack

Romazin – Earrings <Tori>

N-core, VALERIA “White Lace”  (past gift)

skin:——  Pumec – DENISE  / MEDIUM BROWS / – Sunkiss (VELOUR) with — PUMEC – SHAPE – EVO X – AVALON 3.1 (my edit)

/ HEAD / lel EvoX CEYLON 3.1

K!ODIO, Kiss Face – BOM – Evo X 

Jack Spoon. Biba Kit (beauty mark 2) EVOX

REBORN by eBODY v1.69.4

eBODY – REBORN Deformer – Butt Down and little (comes with body; does not really work!)

Kokoro, Franchesca poses (pic 1) (it’s a candy cigarette. don’t smoke.)

FOXCITY, Spicy Bento Pose Set (pic 2)

Lush, Lewdy Paddle w. Bento Poses + Animation gift (added to pose in pic 2) (I don’t know where I got this. I couldn’t find it in store or on Marketplace.)

David Heather, Music Booth Backdrop (at Backdrop City)

easter isn’t just for rabbits

May you have the happiest Easter imaginable!

Portia’s Rabbita makeup is from Hanzel. It allows you to mix and match white and pink features.

I finally made the switch to LeLutka Evo X. Portia’s wearing the Ceylon head with the included skin and a divine shape from Toinha. Her color-change ribbon earrings are from Stoic. Her eyes are from rotten. And her flower-strewn blue nails are from Ascendant.

When Easter’s over Bunny goes home to the moon. Portia’s Fiona outfit is by Pixicat, my favorite line. (But it’s not available in this special 50 L Friday color.) Portia’s stockings are by Caboodle. She can wear them with or without flowers on either leg as she chooses.

Credits

Caboodle – Ruffled Bunny Ears (group gift)

. Hanzel . Rabbita Whiskers, Nose, Mouth Sides, Mouth Lips, Freckles and Blush [Lelutka Evo X]

Moon World, Eyebrows Heart Moon 18

Keikumu, Milano Lashes

Tutti Belli, Spellbound eyes and lips

rotten . heartthrob eyes . water baby 01 

Jack Spoon. Gia Moles 001(evo X)

– FACE – lel EvoX Ceylon 001 (comes with head)

THIS IS WRONG, Painted ears BLACK

.STOIC. LACED EARRINGS FEMALE HUMAN

Nyoko – Yoon-gi Earring 

LeLUTKA.EvoX.Hairbase.029 (f)

-Pixicat- Fiona Dress – PlaidPink (Maitreya)

Ascendant – Boho Nails 03 – Maitreya

Caboodle – Blossom Stockings 

N-core MELISSA “Silver” 

[Toinha] – Shape LeLUTKA Ceylon Evolx 3.1 / MAITREYA

Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.3

Poses by Mewsery, Fox City and Lyrium

The longue goodbye

I have no idea why welcoming 2018 made me go retro. Portia does look lovely in fake fur and theatrical femininity. But that just makes me even more suspicious of my unconscious motives. Compare last year’s photograph, which saw Anorak setting to work against the orange menace. As business-like as she looked, Anorak also dressed in an exaggeratedly feminine ensemble. She was thinking pink.
I think we can all agree that 2017 saw unbelievably awful American politicians do unbelievably awful things. But it also saw short-circuits in the system of routine and traumatizing sexual harassment. Maybe Portia’s ensemble represents my hope that the future will be even more female.

Credits
June Carter’s free 2018 fireworks: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Milkyway%20Island/27/126/55
Enfant Terrible furs and necklace were (and possibly still are) a Holiday Hunt gift.
Devious Mind pasties are part of the past Mata Hari gacha.
N-core shoes are a current group gift.
Glitzz earrings were an advent calendar gift.
Portia wears Maitreya’s Lara body and an old Glam Affair skin, Sia.
Also old is the Behavior Body chaise longue, which came with an accompanying pose HUD with all BB’s nude poses. I do not know how many years ago I bought this. BB is defunkt.

Bottomed out?

About 5 weeks ago I found out I have two spinal bones rubbing against each other (a little) and vasculitis in one leg. I am afraid of bottoming in rope. I don’t want to hurt other parts of my spine. I don’t want my other leg to go. I don’t know how to give up bottoming. (Although it is the case that the woman I was tying with turned out to be mean, and she’s leaving town anyway. So there’s no one to bottom for.) I don’t want to give up futo momos. Just sitting on the floor fucks with my circulation. (I bought compression thigh highs, which might help and might pass for sexy.) I wanted to do a suspension, finally, and there’s now no chance of that, or, I imagine, any remotely strenuous positions. (There’s a cartoon vagina on the other side of this wall. And some despair. It may not be worth clicking. On the other hand: woman masturbating. You may have noticed that the av in the first picture is not thinking about back problems.) Continue reading

Kink on a dime

Reader, I suffered for you this week. I decided to see if it was possible to SLook kinky for SLess. It is. I offer some tips. Portia jumps on every bondage device she sees, and lately she’s been touring BDSM sims because she thinks it might be time to find me a cyber dom. My inventory is bursting with free cuffs. I also have lots of free collars, some of which you can pick up at places like Submission Set Free. It is the case that these items are not top quality goods you want to show off in your fashion-forward photos. I was disappointed when I went through the collars I’ve collected, which are scripted so submissives can do all their grovelly poses, but which tend also to be blingy and poorly textured. I got my favorite free cuffs—a little Gorean in metal, but elegantly delicate and black—from the Grid Couch at Aisling (see pic 3). If you’ve got a little bit of money, there are plenty of gacha cuffs and collars for sale on Marketplace, and they come in a variety of colours rather than just basic black.
The nipple clamps come from CC’s Spread Em prop. These are nicely scaled, if a little large. (If you were standing in RL, these clamps would drag you down with your nipples.) There’s nothing worse than buying an item that is scaled for a yeti rather than a female avatar. Giant clothespins are neither sexy nor true to life. I need some realism in my fantasies. D’eVil offers an array of free bondage and fetish items, which are perfect for people who are just starting out, or who have spent so much on a new outfit at Romp or Kinky Monthly that they can’t afford accessories. Look on Marketplace and inworld for D’eVil items. (I have a Smell Shoe Gag and a Bamboo Gag from D’eVil, which are all “Muahaha you won’t get free of this until you change all your settings.” But I didn’t find them during this week’s search.) The free D’eVil ballet boots (not shown) are disappointing, but this has always been a problem. Now that Slink has created the pointe foot, however, some creators are making good-looking ballet-torture-type footwear. I love N Core’s sleek version, even though it’s more about the leg warmers than the shoe. Oh yeah—N Core is in the middle of sale! Meanwhile, if your tastes run to avant-garde, you’ll find a small assortment of inventively diabolical toe shoes at Azoury. But not for free.
I feel ambivalent about the word WHORE scrawled on Portia’s face, courtesy S.M.H. I hate the way the patriarchy denigrates women as whores and sluts. But I also know that I have enjoyed being called a whore when a roleplay heats up. It’s always been about being my partner’s whore: I’m monogamously slutty. In RL, I am an exhibitionist at heart, so I know I would enjoy being displayed in the dungeon in a degraded state, possibly sweaty and covered in mud and labeled “filthy.” I enjoy it when someone objectifies me sexually, telling me, for instance, that I feel vulnerable because people are looking at my ass. Part of the fun is the difference in the way my pussy and brain react: the pussy throbs but the brain says “People are not staring at my ass. My ass is covered by boy shorts, and I’m almost certain that I have been on my back during the entire scene. And anyway, no one wants to look at my ass. It’s too flat. And everyone in the dungeon has a better ass. Even the guy I’m playing with has an ass cuter than mine. Etc.” While my brain huffs and hotly denies that I have been exhibiting my butt to an appreciative audience, my soul takes its cue from my happy, wet vag. If my brain is a mess of hamsters on wheels, my soul is a pretty butterfly flitting around my top, showing him how much I enjoy his carefully chosen insults.

Free
Ama. : Pride Collar 2017 (gg)
{S.M.H} Dirty Mouth (This is tintable and includes an Omega applier and a classic tat layer.)
[D’eVil] Chastity Belt Thin (This is Maitreya only. It’s scripted: one option lets you turn off the chastity shields and wear it as a chain belt with a cute lock. There’s also a thick belt but I couldn’t edit it to fit my av.)
[D’eVil] Lia Gloves (Maitreya only, tintable) (I’m going back for the latex boots and will try out a latex dress. I hate spending big bucks for a fabric that’s tough to simulate for SL.)
~*By Snow*~ Maitreya – BDSM Emblem Nails (These are not shown. They feature a triskelion symbol in monochrome variations)
[ME] Owned tattoo (This is the best-lettered version of the word: no one wants to be owned in Comic Sans.)

From props
. a i s l i n g . WristCuff from Grid Couch (There are also ankle cuffs.)
NippleClamp&&CC’s from CC’s Spread Em II, version 1.008 (This prop also has clit clamps, an asshook and cuffs for a myraid of attachment points.)

Cheap
:::{KOXAHA}::: BDSM tattoo Submissive (This is 25L on Marketplace and has Belleza, Maitreya, Omega appliers.)

On sale
N-core AISHA *OVER KNEE BOOTS* “Pink” for Maitreya Lara (This pack gives you three variations: shoe, under-the-knee boot and over-the-knee.)

Neither free nor cheap
ICONIC:HF:MAE:TOTAL STYLER:RIGGED in Tonal pack (at Hair Fair) (This can’t be resized and it gaps in back. An alpha doesn’t help. There’s no hairbases in the pack or on Marketplace. These would be appreciated. I’ll try the inworld store.)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1 (I’m sticking with my avs real heads instead of going mesh, but I haven’t taken Lara off since I got her.)

Old
-Glam Affair – Elvi – America – 03 B (I think this is a gacha that you might find in store)

Also of note
pic two was shot at Opium Den, which is beautiful and stocked to bursting with props. The pose is from An Lar, Walled

Constantly tested

preparedI’ve been gone for a while. I kept wondering if I was coming back. I’m not sure that I am back. I had two Hallowe’en outfits to blog, but life got in the way, and then I felt no interest in SL. Truth be told this has partly to do with the fact that I now need to use a mouse with my laptop and don’t want to sit at a desk to recreate after sitting at a desk to work. Continue reading

This ain’t really alive

plaguedoctorandnurse Portia plays a retro very very bad bad nurse, as in naughty but also complicit, an allegory for the Reagan era. (Fashion details: Moon has done a Bettie Page tribute hairdo. Mad’s medical pasties are perfect, and most of them aren’t as over-the-top sexy as these. The pasties are your go-to replacement for that rare dress that you can’t win when you play Zenith’s medic gacha, which is brilliant.)
training day21st-century harried, and horrified nurse, a debtor pressed into service in one of the “caring professions” that attracts fewer and fewer people. Possibly because the job pays nothing to burn people out. By people I mean women, who do 80% of the care work in the west. (I never thought I’d get a chance to use Katatonik’s Plague Doctor gacha buddy. This critter waited patiently for a High Concept post. As you know, a clipboard is the universal sign of Thoughtful Insightful SL blog posts.)
killnotcure Donald Trump’s Neoliberalist fascisim triumphant. This is straight-up dystopian-future sci fi in lingerie, which is really about the now, people, not about the later. (I love Naminaeko’s Windlights. These are the first set of crazy colour lights I’ve been able to use on my retro MacBook. The peep-toes are an N Core group gift.)

Gil Scott Heron’s B Movie, 1981. This shit’s been going on for ages.

 
Credits
NEW Moon. Hair. // Tin Foiled II Hysteria pack (at No. 21)
NEW N-core KAREN “Black” for Maitreya High Feet (group gift)
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
=Zenith=Medic Poison Belt (Black)(Maitreya) (pic 2)
=Zenith=Medic first aid Belt (Black)(Maitreya) (pic 3)
=Zenith=Medic gloves (Black)(Maitreya)
=Zenith=Patient Record board (pic 2)
+Spellbound+ Magical Pony Bit // Silver/Pitch
+Spellbound+ Magical Pony Harness – Heart // Silver/Pitch
Cheeky Amour, Valentines Necklace and lingerie (past Valentine’s gift)
Glitzz, Lovely Stocking (gorgeous open gift, LGBTQ pride rainbow on the back!)
Meva, Mask 2 (past Xmas gift; United Colors has something similar) (pic 3)
*S.E.* (creator Draconias Timeless), Vera Spiked Bat Bloody (pic 3)

Head
NEW Yasum*Nose Piercing *Black* (gift at We <3 roleplay)
[CX] Tongue Trap Pierced (Onyx) (just yum)
.ARISE. Lip Drool (with resizer) [I edited this, moving it from the lips to the tip of the tongue] (last seen at Fi*Friday)
-[aka SU!] Suicidal Unborn!- Silent Eyes Haze (old gift)
-Glam Affair – Skye II – Jamaica 01 NB (not new)
[RUBY] – DOOMED PRINCESS BLOOD ROSES FACE TATTOO (n/a)
NOX. Smut Lip [Red]
Nox. Beauty Marks [Four]
antielle. Smeared Makeup (Black Mascara)
.random.Matter. – Misery Brows

Buddy
Katatonik, Plague Doctor (past gacha)

Poses
pose 1: ZZANG, Pin up Doll pack
pose 2: estetica, Pinup Pack
pose 3: Olive Juice, Gamer con pack (not available)

Settings
pic 3 Adorkable Poses, My Padded Room (n/a)
Doomed Ship Medical Bay

Stormy weather

donatello As many of you know, Squinternet Larnia, the creator behind the Donna Flora line, is unable to afford necessary care for cancer she has been battling since 2011. Her SL friends banded together to establish a fundraiser called Love Donna Flora, where creators are donating varying amounts of profits from sales. There are many lovely items to be had at the fundraiser, which ends August 11. If you’re on a limited budget you might want to prioritize items earmarked for 100 per cent donation rather than 75 or 50. In addition to shopping Love Donna Flora, I went to the source and picked up Donatella, a lovely Art Deco dress in mesh. It comes in a variety of fabrics, some more colorful and less dramatic than the one I’m featuring here. Zoom in on the pic to see the striped ZsaZsa Leo ring, also from Donna Flora. Available in pink as well as gold, it reminds me of a special iced chocolate topped with an almond. In short, I can’t look at it without wanting to eat it. I realize that many SLers are skeptical about fundraisers. Although I don’t believe in karma, I do know that anyone who is seriously ill could easily be me or someone I love. And I believe humankind’s inability, or refusal, to empathize with others is deadly in one form or another.

donatella2l The second round of The Kollective is now open. I couldn’t resist Rumina’s Ciara hair in black ombre. It includes a HUD allowing you to choose one of twenty colours for the tresses in back and the roll up top.

Credits to creators
Donna Flora, Donatella deco-curvy (mesh)
Donna Flora, ZSAZSA leo ring gold (for right and left hand)
.:{Rumina}:. Ciara Ombre (at The Kollective)
[7891.] Total – Gold earrings
N-core, SHARK 2 “One Voice Edition” (not available)
Adoness, The Governess nails – Orange 10-R (a hunt gift found lurking in my inventory, age unknown)
*League* Aria Walnut -Apricot -LBrow -Chest C
&Bean – Wet lips Orange (not available)
(AMD) Ultimate Lashes – Double Wing (came with an old skin)
– Glam Affair – Stella Eyes n4
pose comes with purchase from I <3 Fashion
GIMP wuz here!

Belly weather

nnekalngy Relax in the cool mesh Nneka dress from 22769, which is available in five different glorious patterns and costs a mere 160L.

drayalyes Tense up in Draya, a sizzling SOHO MARKET deal from LC, which can be had for 65L in hot shades of orange, red and yellow, as well as the pink Portia wears here. (The dress is also available in black and in white for chromophobes.) Portia’s bright red bangle is a new subo gift from BSD. You can purchase other colours at Lyfe Of Style. (Be aware that the subo gift bracelet is mistakenly set for 500L at LoS. That’s the price of the fat pack!! Do not buy one bracelet for 500L.)

ariacl However you want to play it, Aria in Walnut works. I’ve never bought a skin from League before, but I was tempted by Nena Janus’ new dark skintones. With the SSB apocalypse on the horizon, I’m trying to dress Portia in skins and stuffs she’s never worn before. Tight cutoff jeans, milking apparatus, were-lady teeth and lizard skin await. Don’t act like you’re not excited.

Credits to creators
Cool look
22769 ~ [femme] Nneka dress african harvest S
*League* Aria Walnut -Apricot -LBrow -Chest C with *League* Aria Lipstick [Walnut] -Coral (Apricot) (pack contains skin without lipstick and lipstick tattoo; second and third pics show skin without lipstick) and with freckles tat, also included
::Mother Goose’s::.(br)eyeline
[UMEBOSHI] Knee tattoo -Eye-
[Iruco]hair25(black)
EarthStones, Neisha Bracelet – Brown/Tigers Eye/Moss Agate
erratic / owl bracelet / gold
MIEL, LISH NECKLACE
MONS / Shocking eyes – gray

Hot look
*League* Aria Walnut -Apricot -LBrow -Chest C
:Lethal Couture:: Draya:Hell on Heels Dress [Pink] (at SOHO MARKET, not Soho Sample Sale)(it’s so confusing)
booN, ZPO133 hair black
-UtopiaH- Wild Skull [gold]
“THE BOYS – cassie Earring (not available)
[tea.s] Starfleet Ring (subo gift)
{{BSD Design Studio}}ICONIC beauty bangle – red (subo gift) [see post for note about this bracelet]
N-core SHARK 2 “One Voice edition (not available)
MONS / Shocking eyes – brown

poses: dfo!, Gala pack (fundraiser edition, prolly not available)

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